Posted in Spiritual Revelations from Our Awesome God

After my surgery, I had a 24-hour stay in the hospital. Although I spent a lot of time sleeping due to the morphine they had me on, I did have some quiet, wakeful hours alone with the Lord. During one of those times, I was thinking about "who" I am as a person and how this experience with cancer may change that. The Lord quietly spoke to my heart and asked me "What's your source?" In other words, what did I use to define the standards that have shaped "who" I am? I know my source should be God and the Bible. But in that moment, I came to realize that my source has been some favorite magazines, websites, and books more the the Holy Bible and my Holy God. Granted, these sources were all authored by Christians quoting scripture and sharing from their own life experiences and wisdom. But to make them my defining source over God and His word is nothing but sin.

Since then, I've realized this question is much broader. My source of strength has been myself. My source of advice has been my friends, my family, my husband. My source of joy has been my children. The list goes on. I don't think any of these things are bad in and of themselves. But God must be #1. He must be my first source.

I have repented and am starting again from scratch so-to-speak. Lord, help me depend on You, my True Source.

~ Layla