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Dec. 28, 2005

Tears of the Motherless, or Why I've Been Away

Mama got sick in Nov. and went into the hospital. She was discharged from the hospital on our birthday, Nov. 17, but by the 22nd was back in with an infection. On the 24th we were told she was in kidney failure and may not make it through the weekend. She was released to Hospice House on Thanksgiving Day and died three days later.

There are a million words hanging in silence between those typed here. A million emotions, thoughts, and cries sagging against a backdrop of pain and loss. This is an empty like nothing I have ever felt.

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Dec. 28, 2005 - Untitled Comment

Posted by spunkyhomeschool

Hugs to you.

I have attended the funeral of my best friend's mother today. It is so difficult to understand your sorrow and that of my friend. But my prayers are with you, as you seek the Lord and His comfort at this time.

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Dec. 29, 2005 - Untitled Comment

Posted by TNMOMTO5BLESSINGS

I understand some of what you are going through.
My mom was hit by a teen running a stop sign a few days before thanksgiving 4 years ago.
Prayers,
TNMOM

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Dec. 31, 2005 - Untitled Comment

Posted by DandelionSeeds

Praying for you... hope all is better. Blessings to you and yours for the coming year.

In Him,
Amy

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Jan. 14, 2006 - I am sorry...

Posted by Beth

for your great loss. I will be praying for you and your family. That numbing, wandering feeling and aching grief still comes to me at times, out of nowhere and then goes from me just as quickly... I lost my Dad years ago (car accident)... when I was 14yo. But our family didn't talk about it, or write about it. I see that your children and you are facing, and even embracing your grief and this is so good. Healing will come as a result. Our family hid from it, and ignored it, and alot more pain followed for our family that may have been circumvented if my Mother had *talked* with us and cried *with* us.;(
As I'm sure you know, tears are good... and your most important of *schooling* has already begun. Your childrens' writings shared above are absolutely moving, beautiful. They surly made her proud, and you too. Of course you'll will always miss her... but over time, the missing changes, ebbs and flows... or it has for me anyways. At least you know where she is, as you've shared. I do not have this certainty with my own Father, which I think lends itself to a darker grieving at times.
I'm glad to *hear* from you again... and hope that I haven't blathered on too terribly much.;-)
love and blessings~

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