This past week has been one of the most difficult times that I’ve experienced on the road. The reality of how far we are from our loved ones really sunk in when I got a phone call on Tuesday that managed to turn my day upside down. My grandmother was dying. I admit after that first sentence I pretty much didn't hear much more of the conversation, just bits and pieces. And then I was confused over which grandmother it was. This grandmother was not in the best health, but surely she wasn't that sick was she? Don't worry said the caller... I know there isn't anything you can do, I just thought you should know... And yes, though I wasn't happy to receive the news, I was appreciative they called but now I didn't know what to do. Should I pack up and drive to Ohio to see her? Would we make it in time? Would she know us? I was pretty sure the caller said she wasn't coherent. As soon as I could speak, I somehow managed to tell the kids, who already had an idea that something was wrong, judging by the tears that were streaming down my face. We decided not to go but made plans to prepare for the services that were sure to follow. I spent the week second guessing my decision, but thankful to have such wonderful memories to hold on to. Just months ago, we had surprised my grandmother with a surprise visit when we were in Ohio and we had such a great time with her. I'm thankful for that. I'm thankful that the Lord laid on my heart several years ago the importance of developing a close relationship with her, in fact, she was one of the reasons that it was hard to leave home behind. We will remember Grandma as a strong woman who loved the Lord and loved to laugh despite her many ailments, illnesses and circumstances. And though in my humanness it is easier for me to think of her here, in my heart I know she's fought a good fight, finished the course and kept the faith. Tonight she’s rejoicing with the Lord and for that, I’m eternally grateful.
© 2009 Tonya Prater/Live the Adventure
Comments
Nov. 9, 2009 - Untitled Comment
Posted by knechtslodge
I am so sorry for your loss. I also had a close relationship with my grandmother that passed away many years ago and my children have a very close relationship with their grandmother. It is wonderful that you got to spend so many years with yours. Not many people can say the same. God will give you peeace and strength to make it throught his difficult time.
Blessings
Diane
Nov. 9, 2009 - Grandma
Posted by Anonymous
Hey Tonya!!! I am so sorry to hear about your grandma. I will pray for comfort for you today and that you feel the Lord's arms around you. It is so hard to lose family.
Take care,
Teresa S.-Ohio:)
By the way, Christian says to tell the boys, "Hi"