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Jul. 19, 2007

Dealing with it

Posted in Life

I was talking to a friend on the phone the other day and updating her on what's going on with *J* and she remarked that I seem to be dealing with it much better this time. Hmmm- I don't know if I'm dealing with it better, but differently. I was so sad last time- I cried LOTS. This time I'm more angry and frustrated and while I do cry and be sad on ocassion I can hold myself together while talking about it- and where I wanted to talk about to anyone who would listen last time. This time I don't. I feel like a failure and that I obviously missed something the first time around if God would allow this to happen to another beautiful child of mine. Yet at the same time I know that isn't true and I'm thankful for the life of each of my children. And then I think how things have changed- and how I've taken my children's health for granted in the past and it takes something life shattering to make me thankful for the very fact that they are alive.

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We're in our third year of this homeschooling adventure and are having a ball. What an honor to spend the days and nights with our wonderful children!