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...at least around here, it is.  and literally around HERE!  ;)

I'm cleanin' up...and lettin' the leaves fall!  hee hee!  I just LOVE Autumn.  I even love SPELLING autumn.            autumn, autumn, autumn!        ROFL!  It's just beautiful here in Germany this time of year.  The fam and I took this last Saturday "off" and walked around a lake about 20 minutes from our home, called Ohmbachsee.  (that would mean "lake near Ohmbach" to those uninitiated ;)) and it was wonderful!  Pics to come!

I've been contemplative a lot lately.  With good reason.  There's been a lot happen around and with me in recent months and I've just been taking stock.  Learning to stop and smell the roses, if you wish to wax poetic.  Learning to stop and enjoy the children to be perfectly honest.  I am a "get it done and move on" type of gal.  Raised by a Type A, Career Teacher, Momma who loves her children, but is only NOW learning to slow down and enjoy them, when the GRANDchildren are young enough to enjoy.  I saw that in my own mother, when we were back in the US on emergency leave (she was NOT the one who was ill, but lived within an hour and we visited twice and three of our children stayed three days with Mom and Dad).  Ooookay...wakeup call to MommaBeck!  Enjoy 'em NOW. 

While we're there...an update on my Mother In Law...she's doing quite well.  She was released from the hospital in Tulsa and into the hospital in Stillwater, into a regular room about a week and a half ago, and was in physical rehab there, and was expected to return HOME near the end of this past week.  I have not called this weekend yet to check.  She will still remain on portable oxygen, as her lungs are in terrible condition, from years of smoking and development of COPD, among other issues.  Her previously untreated diabetes is now under control and will be treated, and her liver and kidneys are functioning.  Her memory of the bitterness that she carried for so long is lacking, so I believe that this is a gift of God through it all.  I pray that she will see Him in it as well and come to Him in a Saving Faith.

Since we've returned, there have been changes in our family itself, and in me, specifically, and I think that finally, I'm on the road to not having a headache.  I have had a (now get this...it took a PhD to figure this out...) "chronic daily headache" for literally years, and I've now had most of two weeks without one.  It's been an odd two weeks, with odd side effects from this medication, but I believe that it will, in the end, treat the cause/root of the problem, and not just the the bandaid to stop the pain.  I'm not a bandaid kinda gal (and if so, it's gotta be cute, like Hello Kitty or somethin' ;)), I want to get to the WHY of the matter. 

SO, without the headache, between having tingly fingers and a numb ear (LOL!), I have learned that my oldest son has a great sense of humor, my two year old is the biggest clown ever born, that my youngest son is learning to read as fast or faster than my oldest son and that my oldest daughter is maturing into a real young lady.  Now, instead of rushing through the day, I am able to remind myself to slow down and enjoy those moments and really SEE the changes in my children before they pass me by.  The leaves are falling...what will the blooms look like next spring? 

Never mind...I'm not ready to see that yet! ;)