"Hold me Lord, and I will be healed; save me and I will be saved, for You are the one I praise. How I celebrate the fact that You have not run away from being my shepherd; You have not desired the day of despair." (Jer. 17:14,16)
"Lord, please help me to revere Your name. You have promised that if I do, the sun of rightousness will rise with healing in its wings and I will go out and leap like a calf released from the stall." (Mal. 4:2)
Tuesday I did something very foolish. I wore sandals that my DH had spent a large amount of time stretching so that I could wear them. I did not bring my old sandals to work with me (something that I always do out of caution) because I felt good and also felt that the new ones were really stretched out. The stinging nerve pain took over by midday but I continued to work. I ignored the signs. My DH wanted me to go home, but out of pride I guess I stayed. I mistakenly thought that I could control it, that it would not control me. By evening I could hardly breath, because the EM went inside my body and I could feel the stinging nerve pain in my lungs (they swelled up). My DH fixed dinner and I did not move from the couch until it was time for bed.
Yesterday, I went to work even though I felt so worn out, so drained of energy. I gave up and went home midmorning. I stayed on the couch and watched "Sense and Sensibility" and slept until DH came home.
Today, I feel better. My hands, knees, and feet are stinging but not like Tuesday. I have renewed energy but am so very cautious. I know now that I cannot control this disease. I do not know if it will get worse in the future, just feel so helpless today. This is why I ask for your wonderful prayers. I need help, and the only answer is of course to pray. 
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