I think God has called me to a life of prayer - and i know this not through any holy thing, but just because He wakes me up and if i pray, i can sleep.

I don't want to give details into the situation i'm finding myself given over to lately in my prayer life - but it is something tender and painful that another set of parents are going through.

And would you believe that God orchestrated my recent illness and hospitalization on purpose?  For a good purpose?

I'm loath to share all the details, but God orchestrated a series of events that have led to an open door to minister to someone else. 

He knew, long before any of it began, how all the threads would come together - a chance encounter, a terrifying trip to the hospital, random photographs, a tragedy - He knows before we do where He's going with any single event in our lives.

We don't see the pattern forming around us - so often we are caught up in the moment - and judging the moment - "oh, that's bad" - "ah, that's good" - and we are so often so premature in judging - because we serve a God who's able to bring good out of any bad, and able to minister to us in our scariest, most painful moments, and turn them into something sacred.

Psalm 27:14

 Wait for the Lord; Be strong, and let your heart take courage; Yes, wait for the Lord.

Psalm 37:9

 For evildoers will be cut off, But those who wait for the Lord, they will inherit the land.

Psalm 27:8

When You said, "Seek My face," my heart said to You, "Your face, O LORD, I shall seek."