We have a tiny camcorder.  It's not even a camcorder - it's more like a cell phone camera that takes movies, wtihout the cell phone :)...

it's tiny, it cost less than 100$ and the quality isn't that great.  Which means that i let the little guys take it and film their daily life whenever they want, and supposing i can find two alive AA batteries (the little thing eats batteries, so unless you remove them after every time you shoot something, they are dead by the next time you want to take a movie.  which is a pain in the bottom, since that means if baby is doing something cute, you have to insert batteries, turn it on, wait for it to warm up, and then push record.  by then, she's graduated from university...

but i digress...

I took some movies of the littles working out with me and T tonight - it was so cute, there was music pumping and baby got to be Wyatt's "weights" for part of it, and afterwards, i was looking at the movies and decided to title some of the other movies i've dumped into that folder.

At least half of them are not by me.  Of the ones that are of me, they are mostly me filming baby's milestones - i don't want to miss any of them - but really, i need to start taking movies of the other children...  They are shaky, and strangely colored (especially when we film in the basement - greenish cast to everything).  They are chaotic, with people running into the frame to ask me a question about homeschooling, or to thrust a lego creation in front of the lens.  Little men without pants, but wearing undone zip up ties (you know who you are...)... 

And i realized - this is it - this is my life.  No, it's not always pretty, yes it's messy, yes, it's chaotic.  But it's a fun life, even if it's not perfect, or perfectly documented...  I wish i had time to sweep before they film their "two feet off the ground" movies - i wish my children all wore pants! ( you know who you are!) - but this is good enough.  I'm doing all i can, and we're still happy and sane and loving God and each other - and when i watch my littles on their home movies, i am so glad for each little one He's given to our family, and can't imagine a space where that child is...