I've been in a bit of a "mood" for four or five days now, and I really need ( and want) to snap out of it, but I just don't seem to be able to do that yet.

I have mentioned before that I am unable to drive due to vision problems.  I can see just fine to do things like read and use a computer, but I have a couple of different things wrong with my eyes that have left me almost NO distance judgement or depth perception.  This makes driving unsafe, so I don't drive.

I am blessed to have a lot of family near me.  My parents live right around the corner from me, and my sister is right next door to them. I also have an understanding husband. 

All of this IS a good thing!  I do my grocery shopping in the evenings when dh can drive me, and he doesn't mind doing it.  My  Mom or Dad always make a way to be available to us if I, or one of the children needs to go to the doctor while dh is at work.  My Mom is almost always available to either go with us, or at least drop us off at homeschool group activities and such.  So, I AM blessed, and I know that, but I lose sight of it sometimes.

Sometimes, I struggle with the fact that even though I am 35 years old, when I want to take my kids to one of our hs group activities, or just to the park or the mall, I have to ask my Mom first to see if she can drive us!  I get frustrated because I have to wait for my husband to be with me so that I can take care of simple errands like doing the grocery shopping and going to the bank.  I almost never do anything alone.

I guess I'm really struggling with the fact that I can't go anywhere to do anything without getting someone else's okay first, be it my parents or my husband.  Maybe I shouldn't feel this way, but some times it just makes me want to SCREAM!!

Maybe this is just "hitting" me today because I'm tired, but I've had several "transportation issues" since last Saturday, and it's getting hard to deal with.

For instance, yesterday, my Mom came and picked up me and all 3 kids to drive us to the girls AHG meeting. Mom has to drop us off there a little early so that she can make it back to work on time.  If we wait for Roger to drive us to the meeting, we are at least 15 minutes late. 

When the meeting was over, Roger was there to pick us up.  We had to make a mad dash to the polling place so I could vote~Roger had all ready voted.  Then, we had to head to Wal Mart for groceries because last night was the only night that Roger would be free to drive me to the store and stay with the kids while I shop.  It was either go last night, or wait until Saturday, and we would have been out of food by then.  So, we went to AHG, I went and voted, and we bought our groceries, and we didn't get home until about 9pm!!  UGH!  AND, the we hadn't eaten any dinner, because we'd been gone since 3:30 in the afternoon!!  So, my kids got Kid Cuisines at 9pm for their dinner last night.  UGH again!  It was late by the time they all went to sleep, and I was exhausted, and I couldn't stop myself from thinking that it would have been a very pleasant evening if I had been able to get up yesterday morning, put the kids in the van, drive to the polling office to vote, then go get the groceries.  We could have gone to the AHG meeting, come home at a reasonable time, and had a decent dinner!!!

I'm not always like this, I promise!  LOL!  I really DO usually have a better attitude than this about these things!  Just a little frustrated, I guess.  So, pardon my whining, and thank you for praying for me.  I could really use it right now!! :)

Blessings,

Mom23munchkins

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