Sep. 27, 2005 - It's only 50°!!!

I love fall. 

Did I tell you that already?  I think I did. 

1G10 and I are sitting here studying God's word.  Not together, but in the same room.  Wow -- how awesome is that?  I love her Patch the Pirate devotions.  Right now she is working on her Landmark Freedom Bible Curriculum.  Soaking it in I hope!

I've started reading a new book for devotions.  Here is what I have to do today.  I need to stop asking other people to change so I can be happy. I need to be able to say, "I'm going to change so we can be happy."  But I know I can't change myself... I'm working through this right now. (I haven't arrived yet...)  The book mentions Psalm 56.9 When I cry unto thee, then shall mine enemies turn back: this I know; for God is for me. 

Matthew Henry says:  The saints have God for them; they may know it; and to him they must cry when they are surrounded with enemies; and, if they do this in faith, they shall find a divine power exerted and engaged for them; their enemies shall be made to turn back, their spiritual enemies, against whom we fight best upon our knees.

And to him they must cry.  They shall find a divine power... I think a lot of times I'm struggling out here on my own.  I don't remember to "cry unto thee".  I have been praying Change Me or Remove Me...  perhaps that has been preparing me for change.  I'll need to own up to my part in the unhapiness... what can I do to change to make myself happy?  Ohhh... I don't know if I like this book.  (Oh... I'm just kidding!)  Wow... do you like to be told you may need to change.  Can you tell I'd rather be REMOVED than CHANGED.  Hmm...

Well -- I've got some thinking to do.  What do I need to change?

Today I get to eat lunch with a bride to be.  How much fun.  I get to be part of someones most exciting day of her life.  I get to share that with her.  I get to help her have awesome memories.  Pray that I'll have wisdom that day.  Pray that I'll be able to fade into the background and serve, and not be noticed.  I bet dying my hair red isn't going to help me fade into the back ground.  ha ha ha... you think I'm kidding??

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