• Oct. 14, 2007
Finally a New Entry

Finally!! After two weeks of a camping holiday and a week trying to get over the camping holiday (!), I am finally writing again!

It won't be very long tonight.  I just felt like writing a few things down. It's nearly 10pm, and I have to have Trent's work clothes ironed before he goes and does another night shift like last night.  I find his night shifts hard.  I miss him at night, and I find the days strange since he is there but he isn't. 

Anyway, I am feeling so good at the moment, feeling so......normal.  Is this what normal feels like?  I really think that perhaps I have had a hint of post natal depression (baby blues) after each of my babies, and that this is my time after Abi's birth that I am getting over it.  I feel overwhelmingly tired so often, but I still feel like I could conquer the world...at least one nose blow at a time, or one pooey nappy at a time, or one cuddle with my precious children at a time!  It's a lovely feeling, and I don't think it's just because we had a holiday.  I actually found the holiday quite tiring and stressful at times (with a lot of packing and setting up and the dusty, hot BMX titles in the middle of it.)  I found it stressful mentally and spiritually as well, because I was trying to work through some issues.

But...I have felt so peaceful and so....me....for just over a week now, and I can't remember the last time I have felt like this.  I am so excited about life, and so looking forward to all that is coming up in this busy time of year. Oh, I'm sure there'll be many, many more bad and hard days, but I just feel as though God has helped me through a really hard time mentally and that I have made it through.  It's nothng that I have done.  How thankful am  I that God is so patient with me!

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• Nov. 15, 2007
Hello

Posted by imlne

Hello, I just clicked on random blog and there you were. I can relate on the vacation being tiring. I always feel so thankful for home. Even if we've had a fun time-and there's still stacks of laundry to do and things to put away. I don't blog often-life seems too busy, but if you'd like you could drop in and read what I've written in the past.
And yes, I'm glad God is patient with me too.
Melanie

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