"I don’t know if natural childbirth advocates have signed a “pact of secrecy” or what, but I was not prepared for the end."

Okay-- the above quote fromthis WONDERFUL blog entry-- has me a bit terrified!! 

As I am really hoping to go au' natural this time too-- (after 4 medicated births).   My thoughts on the previous births were-- if you are making me take pitocin-- then I'll take the "chaser" of an epi to go with it-- I'd be crazy NOT TO!! 

SO I am really hoping to NOT have pit-- and go natural--  although THIS quote from the same blog entry-- resinates within me!! 

"Long story short, it was tempting, at the suggestion of the nurse, to take a little pitocin to speed things up.  Especially as I watched my family grow weary with me.  It was almost a pressure to perform–like *I* was holding up progress, and I just wanted it to be over so everyone could get some rest. "

I have heard that the reliance on God is so necessary and strong in these births-- I was talking to a dear friend at church and she shared how much she is in CONSTANT dialog with the Lord during her births-- it is the ONLY thing that keeps her going-- and it made me think-- how LITTLE dialog I have had with the Lord DURING my actual births-- WHY?  I didn't really "NEED" him at that moment -- the epi took care of it all....  (sad).  Don't get me wrong we do pray and THANK the Lord for the blessing -- but I can tell from listening to women who have gone "natural" that is a DIFFERENT dependence-- one that CHANGES you FOREVER on the "other side".

So I must also link to Generation Cedars "after thoughts" on where the Lord brought her to--  God Has Answered

I am reading Ina May's Guide to Childbirth-- very interersting.   Yesterday Jason picked up  "Husband Coached Child Birth" by Bradley-  (have to laugh Jason said "we've done this before-- what do I need to read-- LOL-- hoping he reads it FAST-- but KNOWING that Jason is such a good labor coach-- he really is there FOR me--  SERVING me-- LOVING me--- )

Here are 2 other NATURAL Homebirths that I really have enjoyed reading--

KEEPER OF THE HOME-  Johannas Birth Story

LILY OF THE VALLEY-  The Glorious Birth of Anastasia Rose

This quote from LILY of the VALLEY-- sums up what I mentioned above about TOTAL DEPENDENCE UPON GOD in this area....   Maybe its good I am done "nesting" and I can REALLY focus on my children and CALLING UPON THE LORD....

"There were no drugs to disguise the pain, and these were very "real" moments in my life. But the greatest thing about it, was that when you realize that all you have left is God, it is in that very moment that you realize that He is more than enough to meet your every need."