• Jan. 11, 2006
What am I doing?
Tonight I sit here surrounded by the gentle sounds of deep sleep as I look into my children's angelic faces. It is a rare night, they have fallen into a deep slumber much earlier than what is typical in our household.
As I write, I reflect on my life. I've been the wife to a wonderful husband for the past thirteen years and the mother to the two most precious people I've ever known. My life has turned out just the way I imagined...but totally different than I imagined.
Yes, I have the husband and the children. We have the home with the huge fenced yard on the corner. We have the two dogs, four fish, and until recently the microsquirrel which got out of his cage and caught in a mousetrap. But, I'm not doing anything I ever imagined. My life has not turned out the way I planned.
I didn't always want to homeschool. In fact, the thought never crossed my mind. As a elementary school teacher it seemed, well, wrong. Of course, that was before I had children.
So, what am I doing? Why do I subject myself to the endless responsibility of child-rearing and educating? Why do I forfeit my life for theirs? Why do I allow myself to always be last when filling up the "needs glass?"
Love.
It's that simple. I love my children and my husband. I would do just about anything for them. I've been called "weird" for my convictions and that's okay. I love being weird. I wouldn't have it any other way.
So, my life isn't what I planned. Who's is? Wouldn't that be boring if we all could plan the next 70 years of our life when we were just emerging from childhood. I didn't plan my life...but I embrace it.
I hope you can embrace yours too. It's not always easy...or happy. But it's yours.
Sweet Dreams...
Comments
• Jan. 11, 2006
Beautifully said
Posted by whirlwind
What a wonderful entry. I like your "about me" too.
• Jan. 11, 2006
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Posted by KarenW
I never imagined I'd be where I am today either. But most of the time, I love it!
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