I have this fascination with the Duggar family.  Pretty much everybody in the homeschooling world knows who the Duggars are.  I just love this family.  I seriously would love to have a family like they have.  Not that I dislike my family now, I just wish that we could bring our children up in that same way.  I simply love the way their family LOVES each other...they are always helping one another..you can clearly see the strong family bond that they all share.  Our family doesn't have that.  I am ashamed to say that most of that is my fault.  I have screwed up so many times as a mother and a wife. 

I would love to be able to go and spend a day with Michelle and see just how their family interacts with each other all day long.  I am so impressed with all of their children.  How in the world are all 17 children so well behaved and respectful...while I am having such a difficult time with my 4 year old. 

Another thing that I really like about the Duggar family is the way they dress.  The whole family looks nice all the time.  At this time, I wear dresses or skirts only, but my children do wear pants/jeans.  I would love for my boys to look like they do...right now they wear sweatpants and t-shirts everyday.  My girls wear jeans and tops, or sweatpants and t-shirts.  I really believe that if young girls were brought up to dress modestly, their attitude towards being "feminine" would change.  My youngest daughter wears little skirts and tops during the day...she is just 2. 

Sorry if i sound like I am rambling.  I have this dream family in my head of how I would love things to be.  I would love to have family worship everyday in our home(Dh is not a believer,,please pray for his salvation).  I would love to get rid of the TV,  The shows nowadays are so terrible...nothing appropriate for children, and even the shows geared towards children are not acceptable to watch.  The Duggar family is my inspiration! I want to be michelle when I grow up!  I know we shouldn't compare ourselves to other families, but i feel like my family is kind of torn..almost broken.  It is so hard to be a christian mother and carry the burden of training them up in the way they should go without the help and support of a christian father. Though I am am married, i feel so alone. I don't know if I can do this alone...the right way.  I feel so inadequate.  I so want my children to be brought up in the teachings of the Lord.  Just pray for me...and my family.