I am still here.  I have had a really rough week so far dealing with my migraines.  I have been to the doctor 5 times since monday.  I'm hoping tomorrow will be a better day.  I will be seeing a neurologist in two weeks.  I had an MRI done a few weeks ago.  I have several abnormal white masses on my brain.  There is swelling on my brain also. They also think I might have the beginning stages of MS.  It isn't for sure yet, but they will do a spinal tap to find out. 

I wanted to say thank you to all the sweet ladies who left me a comment after my last post. You all are so wise. I know that if I seek Him, I will find Him.  HOW do I seek Him?  HOW do I study my Bible?  I pray but most of the time I feel like my prayers are forced..can't think of the right word here.  I want to know HOW to study and pray. Candy said that I should study and read the Bible "fiercely."  HOW do I do that?