I have a few minutes, so I thought I would give an update.  I woke up Sunday morning not feeling well, and I had almost talked myself out of going to church, but something inside just kept telling me to get ready.  I got my children ready and we went.  I am so glad that i did.  I felt like i had the entire world on my shoulders, and sat almost numb during the service.  Something the Pastor said just spoke directly to me...He described someone, who may be in our congregation right now.  This person was saved many years ago, but has always felt that God was far away.  This person has screwed up so many times they may feel they are unworthy of being loved by anyone, especially God.  It was like he was describing me EXACTLY!  And then he said something that profoundly spoke to my heart..."WE CANNOT UNDO WHAT JESUS DID FOR US ON THE CROSS! No matter how many times we mess up or fail, there is nothing that can separate us from His love!"  I prayed right then and thanked Him for loving me in spite of all my failures.  And while I am still struggling with some issues, I truly do feel much better...I so appreciate all the kind words and prayers sent up on my behalf.