I'm sorry it has been so long since I have written anything.  I have seriously just not had a chance to be online very much.  I am now using the computer at my friend Jenny's house.  I wanted to give an update on my situation...so many of you have sent the sweetest comments to me, and your prayers for our family are so much appreciated!

I am living with my mother right now. She has graciously provided me with room and board...and I am so thankful.  My husband has temporary custody of our children.  It has been really rough and I miss them so much.  I still can't wrap my mind around the fact that this is happening to me.  I thought we would be married forever.  I am doing ok though.  I still see my husband several times a week.  And I was able to see my children on Saturday and Sunday this past weekend.  I miss being involved in their everyday life.  I think what hurts the most is that we are no longer homeschooling.  My son, David is in kindergarten at the local school near us, and my 4 and 2 year olds have been enrolled in a christian daycare. (this just breaks my heart...anyone who knows me, knows that I am the most anti-daycare person on the planet!!!)  It breaks my heart to think of someone else raising my children for me during the day. I miss them more than I ever felt possible. I have had 2 interviews with a home health company that works with mentally handicapped people.  Please pray that this job works out.  It would mean alot more money, benefits, and a job I can do well that will make a difference in someone else's life.  AND the hours are from 7:30am til 3:30pm...just perfect for being able to spend the afternoons with my children.  So, I am trying to get my life back together.  And I am still praying that the Lord works a miracle in our marriage.  I love my husband so much and cannot even fathom life without him.  I don't think I have ever prayed so much in my entire life.  Amazingly,  He has given me a sense of peace about this whole situation, and I know that He will work it out according to HIS plan for my life.  It may not go the way I want it to, but I know that He has my best interest at heart, and all I can do is trust.  And that is sooo hard for me...not knowing what is going to happen next.  I appreciate all of my online friends who have supported me through this.  Please continue to pray for our family.