A Mom's Journey

I am not superwoman

Yesterday morning I was so excited to start the blog, I was composing new entries in my head.  Then my day fell apart.  It was a horrible afternoon.  It finally culminated in my burning dinner, deciding I wasn't going to touch another appliance, loading the kids up into my newly repaired van and discovering half way to town to pick up a pizza that the van was not fixed.  As I sat there and cried, my 3 year old daugther said, "Thats ok mommy, I can change my mind, we can have hot dogs for supper."

I didn't sleep much because I was still keyed up from the day and we had a toilet tank (yes the tank not the bowl) decide to overflow in the middle of the night.  My poor husband discovered the water with his feet at 2am.  Needless to say no one was happy. Anyway, as I lay there thinking (and wandering the house) I realized that I can't do everything.   I can't be a good mom, handle my husbands business phones, finish college, homeschool, keep a clean house and have any type of social interaction outside my home.  Or at least I can't do this on a daily basis.  Now this is not a new epiphany, I've had it before but maybe this time it will sink in.

So, what am I to do?   I only have this semester of college and next semester then I'm finished. I really want to finish so I can't give that up.  I can't give up being a mom, or homeschooling, or answering my husband's phone..... I guess I just need to schedule life.   Each day decide what is most important that day and do just that.   Today, I am going to write a paper for school, only answer my husband's calls or the business line, do school, and clean house.  If I finish those tasks I'll work on the swing set I'm putting together.   That's it, nothing else.   And if dinner doesn't get cooked then the kids can have sandwiches.  

Well, I better get started....

Ohhh my what a terrible, horrible, bad day...

8:28 AM, Feb. 22, 2006 .. Posted by FaithfulGrace

I have had days like that. Only when I completely surrender to the Lord each day does it get better. And even then there are wrench's thrown in to the day.

What a sweetheart your daughter is!!!
Looking forward to reading more of your blogs,
Linda

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8:29 AM, Feb. 22, 2006 .. Posted by FaithfulGrace

Please, please don't give up on school.
Praying for you to have strength for this day,
Linda

Things will get better.

8:55 AM, Feb. 22, 2006 .. Posted by thehsmomof2

I promise! We all have days like you described. Please do not give up on anything important.

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11:03 AM, Feb. 22, 2006 .. Posted by Hereathome

I can just imagine C saying that. How sweet! I am sorry life is not getting any easier very fast. I think you have your head on straight though.

Stephanie