• Oct. 6, 2009
I just got back from dropping off my son at his motel
I am feeling so lonely right now. As soon as I packed in things we bought in the city I went and stood in his room. I opened the door and he had turned off the light so I flicked on the lamp by his bed and left it on.
I stood there for awhile looking at all his things. Sometimes I just feel like such a baby. No one around here with kids seems to understand how I feel. All I hear them say is how glad they were when their children left home, but for me it leaves an empty spot.
I can keep busy and do things to keep my mind off him being gone, but it's the quiet times at night when things slow down that are hard. Coming home to a quiet, dark house was hard.
It's made harder without my dh here to help me through this and my middle dd and granddaughter moving over the weekend. You all are probably sick of me whining about this. I know I'm not the only mom going through this and having a ds in the military.
If you all would in the coming weeks say a prayer for me when you think of it to help me through the next few months I'd appreciate it. Also tomorrow Levi's plane won't leave until 3 pm. He will be taken to the airport at 11 am and will have to wait for four hours by himself. He's the only one going to Leonardwood tomorrow.
He won't have anyone to share the monotony with him and that will make the time and trip seems to go so much slower. The good thing is he is so happy to finally be leaving. He's waited so long for this. Another good thing was I got to spend the whole day with him before we dropped him off at his motel. Now the count down begins.
I stood there for awhile looking at all his things. Sometimes I just feel like such a baby. No one around here with kids seems to understand how I feel. All I hear them say is how glad they were when their children left home, but for me it leaves an empty spot.
I can keep busy and do things to keep my mind off him being gone, but it's the quiet times at night when things slow down that are hard. Coming home to a quiet, dark house was hard.
It's made harder without my dh here to help me through this and my middle dd and granddaughter moving over the weekend. You all are probably sick of me whining about this. I know I'm not the only mom going through this and having a ds in the military.
If you all would in the coming weeks say a prayer for me when you think of it to help me through the next few months I'd appreciate it. Also tomorrow Levi's plane won't leave until 3 pm. He will be taken to the airport at 11 am and will have to wait for four hours by himself. He's the only one going to Leonardwood tomorrow.
He won't have anyone to share the monotony with him and that will make the time and trip seems to go so much slower. The good thing is he is so happy to finally be leaving. He's waited so long for this. Another good thing was I got to spend the whole day with him before we dropped him off at his motel. Now the count down begins.
