• Oct. 10, 2008
Are You Kidding Me?
I have been having some trouble with my breathing, so I went to the pulmonologist. Note: not the psychologist, but I couldn't tell the difference!!
I was in the room waiting to see the doctor and in walks a nurse practitioner in training.
She said that she was in training and could she ask me a few questions. I say ok.
She asks me my symptoms, finds out I have 5 children AND I homeschool and she diagnoses me!!!
She says it is stress and I MUST take time for myself!!! I should walk, whatever. Learn how to deal with it. She tells me some people take drugs to help them.
Yes, I say, I take time to walk and read my Bible. I find those things important.
She pretty much pretends she doesn't hear me and tells me I need goals for myself AND looks at me and asks me so, do you have goals?
I sit there thinking about how I can't believe I'm having to listen to this and smile as sweetly as I can and tell her I'm doing what I always wanted to do.
She informs me that yes, but "those" children will grow up one day and then what am I going to do?
Then I see the doctor after that and he doesn't even try to diagnose me. I am a mystery!! He doesn't know what's wrong. The tests he's done have come back with good results.
I left there not even sure of how I should feel. I wanted to laugh and cry!!!! I think she thought she did her good deed for the day. I really wish I would have just said some profound things that would point her to Christ.
She definitely feels differently about Motherhood than I do. I find the job I am doing so important and know God will provide the time I need for myself when I need it. I will trust Him for that!
My goals are to raise my children and point them to Christ.
When they are gone, I know God will provide me with plenty to do. I don't have goals to start a career. I see plenty of Godly examples around me (thankfully) of women who are serving others after their children are gone and they are definitely not BORED.
Which leads me to the whole subject of fulfillment. Motherhood and Women staying at home with or without children is not seen as fulfilling. I cannot find fulfillment in Motherhood b/c of my many failures. But I can find fulfillment in knowing I am doing what God wants me to be doing! AND that is where I and the nurse practitioner in training (AKA psychologist) differ!
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• Oct. 14, 2008
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Posted by Sarah
Well my goodness! Every once in a while there are those people in life that say things like that and really make you stop and think and I think God allows that to reconfirm in us what we know He has called us to do - stay home and devote ourselves to our husbands and families!
