Ok well yes I have been a little lacked in keeping up with the blog..  So going to get caught up here..bear with me could be lengthy. lol.   Lets start in November..went to the doctor for the yearly check up. After her exam I was told I have to have an ultrasound cause she feels that my uterus walls are abnormally thick..So off to the ultrasound..got threw that and of course the tech wouldn't say a word to what was on the pictures. So then a 3 day wait for the results.  After the wait, I'm told I need to see an ob/gyn. OOOK..so onward to the next appt. where he schedule me for outpatient surgery which was on the 21st of December.. Through this whole thing I have this very real sense of calmness. It's a bit hard to explain. But it's just the comfort of knowing you aren't the one in control. That HE has everything in HIS hands...you what I mean?  Anyway during surgery he removed a polyp and did a biopsy..and of course did the d&c. Was told to take it easy until the 8th of January when I return for the results. Yeah right Doc...I'm a homeschooling mom of 4..take it easy isn't in the vocabulary..lol....but I have had no pain no nothing with surgery.

A sense of calm continues to feel my heart and soul. I was told that it could possibly be the "C" word. And if it is we deal with it when the time comes. Or it could be nothing. But we can't worry about something that may never come true. We rest in HIS hands and let HIM handle all our worries and fears. I can't say the thought has never came into my mind that it could be cancer. But with HIM in my heart it never stays long in my mind.

HE is my sense of calm and continues to be. How wonderful it is to bring things to HIS feet and LEAVE them there. Yes somethings aren't as easy to leave there. But if we don't leave them there, how can we have a sense of calm?

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