my dear kynie, life is all about growing. and as yr learning day by day, sometimes growng hurts us. it hurts in different ways for different people. it may be in the spirit, mind, or body....  so where does growing hurt u?

i've observed that yr always full of bruises. and you've got so used to them it seems, that half the time u dont even know how they happened!  and yes, that even goes for e enormous ones on yr ribcage, yr tailbone, as well as e usual line-up on yr shins...  ;)

and sometimes u hv muscle pulls, spasms, aches and pains after a rigorous gym or swim session. eg. just these last few days u'v bn having a sore neck that's kept u lying awake... then just last nite u cdnt sleep and complained of "a sore pain in my heart. like a sharp pain and squeezing". u clutched yr chest as u bent over grimacing for well over an hour, sometimes quieting yr groans in a pillow.  it was pretty strange how it came on so suddenly in the night. 

well, after figuring out that it wasnt yr asthma, i let u sit beside me on the sofa for a while thinking abt what to do next.  yr heartbeat was racing but it was too fast for me to count. (and in my mind i was quietly wandering if we'd be sitting in a&e in a few hrs time, but i quickly put it from my thoughts. 

i was trying to figure out if there's the slightest chance that an at-risk kid cd hv a heart-attack after an excessively strenuous day? i know yr cholesterol is above normal from yr last episode, but otherwise these things dont happen to perfectly healthy 6-yr-olds rt?)  well, my sanity overcame me, so i silenced my thoughts and said a prayer for u.  then i felt peace that all wd be well, and we both watched some tv to help as a distraction. 

it worked...  until i wanted to sleep, but by then the pain was across yr chest and left side, (which reminded me btw of when daddy pulled a chest muscle while lifting weights. u were both holding yr chests in the same manner ;))  so i came to the conclusion that you'd probably hurt yrrself during the trampolining again, mb u jerked suddenly during that new move?

well i gave u some panadol, took u to my bed and propped u up beside me (it's meant to put less strain on the heart ya?... ie less blood volume to pump? or so the nurse told me when i had my funny turn :b)  .. then i settled down beside u and held yr hand until we both fell asleep... on top of each other!.

in the morning u said no more about it... so i'm gathering it's all back to normal :)  ...but the day presented itself with new trials:  since waking this morning you've bn sneezing and snotting and itching alllll day! even in the pool u actually sneezed while coming up from under water, spluttering as u surfaced. u poor kid... none of e meds helped and yr allergic nose remained sore, red, blocked and drippy, and infuriatingly itchy! u wanted to yell out about it qt a few times and u nearly did, along with almost rubbing yr nose rt off the surface of yr face!!!... but u listened to me instead and kept yrself composed. :)  well done!

 rt now i dunno what all this is about my boy.  but somewhere, some day, you'll discover that there's meant to be a purpose to it all.

mama's biggest hugs in the meantime!