all about me change is happening... 

my life seems a total bore in comparison.

i have become consistent... so predictably predictable in my roles, predicatable in my expectations, and predictable in my actions and their outcomes. predicatble in my home-life, and predictable in my relations.  even the spur-of-the-moment things i sometimes do, have become so predictable to me.   councillor, teacher, comforter.  many hats but the same role. empty vessel or_

channel.  it's been a year of challenge, a year of discovery, a year of trying to radiate peace and consistency through the storms.  i' can see now there have been changes.... i've been molded to be less reactionary....

changes within rather than without.