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Oct. 26, 2007
The Journey of Motherhood
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As the Lord works to mold a womans' heart, I think a lot of times he uses motherhood to do so. Doesn't that just show the love and graciousness of the Lord to use what we mothers do best, in order to bring us closer to Him? The other day I talked to an old high school friend. I lost touch with her shortly after she was in my wedding. In high school she was one of my closest Christian friends, however, through the years she has drifted away from the Lord and started living primarily for self. She called me this past week and we were soon laughing and carrying on like we were in high school again! She was telling me that she had been living a crazy, selfish life, until she had her son 3 years ago. When she first saw him, she knew she had to get her life straightened out to point Him to the Lord. To make a long story short, over the last 3 years she has been doing that; which has been difficult with her alcoholic husband (he is not a Christian). I told her she would be in our family's prayers and we are planning on reuniting soon. After talking to her, I was praying for her and just thanking the Lord that He brought a child into her life to bring her back to Him...what a sweet, gentle way!!!!!!! Then I started pondering my own walk with Christ and I saw how He has drawn me SO much closer to Him through mothering.....Here's my story......of how I am nothing without Christ....... After 2 years of marriage the Lord blessed my husband and I with a beautiful baby girl. She was perfect in every way! We were proud parents and everyone around us knew it! My life was centered around her, playing with her, reading with her, sewing for her, etc. etc. etc. Life was good!! We thanked God daily for giving us a beautiful child!! After 4 years of struggling through infertility issues we were blessed with baby #2. WOW, this time, a beautiful baby boy!! I remember my husband left me on the ultrasound table to run and call his Dad and everyone else he knew to tell them he was getting a baby boy!! We thought life was perfect before, now it was even more so! I had to struggle a little bit more to keep a clean house and 'appear' like I had it completely together to those at church and others around me, but I could do it! The Dr. told us we probably wouldn't be able to have any more children, but the Lord blessed us with another beautiful baby girl just 2 years later. We were so thankful! Once we had 3 children, I struggled to keep up the 'having it all together' appearances! My house sometimes fell apart, my fitness program fell by the wayside, and my children weren't always dressed anymore in handsewn matching outfits at church (my husband was o.k with that, because he was getting tired of the handsewn matching ties  , but he never would've broken my heart and told me so!) I had to learn to lean just a little bit more on the Lord to get through my days. I knew in order to point my children to the Lord, I needed to have my own time with Him each day...so I tried my best to do that. We knew we wanted more children, but since at this point , we couldn't have anymore, we started praying about adopting. The Lord heavily laid this on our hearts, but of course we were asking "Who, What, When, Where, and How?" Another long story (we'll blog about that later!!!) However, 5 years later the Lord graciously blessed us with a precious 3 week old baby boy!! We knew the Lord had brought him to us!! We were so thankful and wanted to shout from the rooftop of the Lord's faithfulness! However, over the next 1 1/2 years we were on a constant emotional rollercoaster ride, trying to adopt him. Through this I had to learn to COMPLETELY trust in the Lord and His sovereignty, I knew for the first time in my life that I had NO control!!!! I no longer had to 'try' and squeeze in my quiet time....I knew I HAD to have it in order to have the strength, peace, and guidance the Lord so graciously gives. Which brings us back to my original point of how the Lord in His gentle, loving ways sometimes uses mothering to draw us closer to Him. Stay tuned for Part 2................................... |
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