Posted in Ponderings

Things are quite dicey lately...

Big Guy is having meltdowns, Little Guy is breaking out in rashes & getting die off of the viral & yeasty kind, Storyman & Butterfly are chattering away endlessly (which is great as my other 2 are non verbal but being overly verbal can be trying as well!), & the Ladybugs are very cranky with their new teeth coming in & trying to learn new developmental skills such as sitting up & crawling...

AND I fried my laptop... more on that in my other blog, but I dumped coffee on the keyboard. And it's fried. Fried, fried, fried! I hope we can get it fixed. Hubby is calling Dell to come by; it probably won't be covered under warranty though. Ugh.

I sometimes forget my vitamins but I'm trying to be consistent. I've recently added tumeric, my Armour Thyroid, biotin, & the liquid D to my list. I can't say I feel much better yet, but I haven't cleaned up my diet well enough to judge. I find I can take lots of great supps but if I don't eat right they can't do their job well. With the added stress & strain here lately I just haven't applied myself enough to, well, me.

By applying myself to "me" I just mean maybe a little beyond basic care. I get some basic care; although I haven't had a professional haircut in 1-1/2 years. (I hate haircuts though; it's a curly hair thing). I'd like to eat better, but I grab & I comfort. Not good. Typically what's quick, easy, & comforting is not good for me.

I don't really need to "get out". I don't mind not going anywhere, not having vacations, not doing "dates" with the husband, or homeschooling events or mom's night out stuff. They'd be nice but it's not on the ticket right now. I'd like to have more family stuff with all of us, but that just isn't altogether possible. I'm hoping it won't be forever. Seems like I've been hoping that for a long time though...

I also wish I could have more individual "good" time with each kiddo. Not the "quality time" stuff, just good time. Good RDI interchanges with my autie boys, good activity or reading time with all, enjoy a nice, quiet nursing gazing at my lovely babies without being interrupted by quarrelling kiddos...

I think I do have kind of a unique situation with the variety of special needs, ages, abilities, etc, so I just wish there were more of me to go around!

I guess I must apply Phi 4:13 more...