Posted in Ponderings

I've been quite discouraged lately by the constant challenges; seems like everytime I turn around there's something else difficult happening. If the Lord truly uses challenges in our lives to bring us closer to Him, then He must really want me at His feet 24/7.

Being tired isn't helping; been extra tired lately. It's almost constantly on my mind to eat better; I must be being convicted. I know I'd feel better, so why is it so tough? Seems ridiculous when I think about it.

I also get tired of being alone, sometimes, then (many) other times I think I actually prefer it. The latter one might be a bit more of a concern.

My home needs so much organizing. I cannot fathom how it will all get done. I think right now I'm in the fog, & can't see the clearing. All I see is everything & everyone needing/wanting my attention.

So how to get myself together in the middle of it all... baby steps, baby steps... maybe I'll get to that someday.

I'd trade all that for the children to get better. Three in particular are on my mind right now, although the others are never far behind.

We need His miracles here.

But then as I've read recently, no one is "entitled" to His healing, no one is "entitled" to an easier life, especially not Christians. He said we'd have trouble in the world. I guess that helps me look forward to eternity, & keep my mind focused on Him.

I do want that. I want my mind to stay focused on Him.

Can I do that without my children suffering? Only He knows for sure.

Maybe there's more work to be done on me first.