May. 15, 2008 - Who am I?
I do not intend on sending a ripple of discontent throughout the homeschool blog family. I am just wondering if there are any others out there who are having an identity crisis of sorts. As usual, the past few days I've been looking at curriculum, reading on different styles of HS, and then it hit me. Is this who I am now? Is this all there is to me? It must be because I can't think of anything that takes up my time more than this. I know I should be content, but part of me wants to remember the other side of me that must be hidden deep inside somewhere. The me who used to do things with friends that didn't include field trips. The me who used to browse a book store for an entertaining novel, not another how-to-teach instructional. Where did that person go and is it too late for her to make a come back? Is it selfish to want to know that part of me again? Another part of this identity crisis is that fact that I'll be 40 years old this year. 40! What does that mean? I don't think I know how to be 40. I still remember being a kid and thinking, "40 is OLD!". Sorry for the pity party, that's the only partying I seem to be able to do these days.
Comments
May. 15, 2008 - Thanks for stopping by
Posted by doughgirl37
Yes, I can relate! When I hear a song from my romping days, all of a sudden realize there is a part of me that I miss. I miss ME! It takes a conscious effort to get away with a friend (or DH) and reach that person again!
May. 15, 2008 - I hear ya!
Posted by brafordchemist
I've spent the past two days attempting to download free curriculum over an unstable dial-up connection. I need a different hobby. This identity of homeschool mom seems to take over everything. I hope you find some balance in this season of your life. It is a season, and it will be over all too soon (I need to remember this too).
Jamie
May. 18, 2008 - Untitled Comment
Posted by blessedwith2angels
I completely understand. Sometimes it is good to go out with some girlfriends for lunch or just take some me time to remember what life was like before!
pam
May. 18, 2008 - Oh Yeah!
Posted by shawtime
Christy, I know exactly what you mean. In fact, I'm going on 40 too! *LOL*
We have so much on our plates as home educators, mommy, wife, and so on. It almost seems selfish to have "me" time. Yet, it is absolutely necessary. I read a book once that explained it this way. It is a favor to our spouse and to our children if we take care of ourselves too. In return, they get a calmer, happier mom. Try to find time get to know yourself again. I don't get away often, but when I do, it's only a trip to the bookstore or the library. Those quiet times usually help me feel like a real person again. I'll be praying for you.
May. 19, 2008 - Untitled Comment
Posted by sadie423
I get that feeling completely! Somewhere along the way to motherhood and homeschooling "you" get lost in the mix. It's easy to do, harder to find yourself again. I am trying these days to find a hobby other than writing plans and searching for ideas!!
May. 24, 2008 - No,
Posted by abundantblessings
it's not too late...it's just this season of life. I do understand your sentiments on turning 40! I'll be turning 40 next year..and really can't believe it!
Your turn will come again..for now, it's all about raising children...they will far too quickly be off starting their own lives and it will be time to focus on you again...
Blessings,
Laurie
