I don't even know how I want to start my blog today.  I realized I haven't written too much school related in it.  I have been struggling with school this year.  I continue to have trouble being enthusiastic.  I'm at a point where if I could send my two teens to private school I would.  (The local public school just isn't an option for us.  It’s really bad.)   JP has no interest in going to private or public school.  SJ plays basketball with a local private school and would love to go there.   I probably should have let my youngest go to the local public school when she started kindergarten, but I wasn't ready to let her go and it didn't seem right to send her "away" when the twins were coming back from their one year in ps.  She seems to have a reading disability that perhaps their special ed could have caught.  I just figured she wasn't ready.

I really need to remember the verses from Philippians about thinking on all things good and pure and beautiful because my mind keeps dwelling on all the negatives of our homeschool:

The rules I wrote up months ago haven't been well enforced.  (my fault)
My two 9th graders are behind in history and English. 
My 9th grade daughter struggles with math and is about 4 grades behind.
My 3rd grader is still struggling to read.
We start school on Monday (today is Saturday) and I'm fatigued from a stomach virus and my fibromyalgia and not ready to start.
My kids have lousy study habits.

I don't want to start on Monday.

  There I said it.

Yes, I need an attitude check and need to look for the good in our circumstances.
:::deep breath::::

I was finally able to meet with an education specialist in November and December and we began a program for my 9th grade daughter  to try to help her get on track.  She is math disabled, but we have a plan now.
My 3rd grader is doing very well with math and learning her math facts.  Calculadder has been helping her a lot! 
My son, a hands-on kind of kid, is going to earn credit working side by side with my husband in remodeling/refinishing our bathroom.  He will learn all kinds of useful life skills.
My kids aren't perfect, but they are generally caring people who usually want to do the right thing.
We aren't behind (too much) in science or math.

I guess it is hard to be positive when you are feeling physically and emotionally weary.  Even more reason for me to keep reading God's Word and seeking Him first.  Jesus said that His yoke was easy and His burden is light.  If I feel like I have a heavy burden on me it’s because I've put it there myself, either with negative thinking and/or from consequences to my own actions or inactions.

I haven't done much in the way of New Year's Resolutions this year.  When people ask me I say that I just want to continue in the improvements I began last year which include diet, bible reading and keeping a budget.  However, I do need to add a few new resolutions.  Exercise is an important one because that can help me emotionally as well as physically. I've been talking about adding exercise most of last year, now is the time to start.  The other thing is to endeavor to keep a more positive attitude about school and keeping on track.  Easier said than done, but not impossible.

I'm thinking I'll check in here weekly and journal each week and try to focus on the positives of the week.

I wanted to be writing more anyway.  

It just occurred to me as I was writing this the name I gave this blog.  I have been fighting being weary since the beginning of the school year.  I think I need to stop fighting in my own strength and just endeavor, as our pastor has recently challenged us, "do the next right thing."  How would it be different if I give more "effort" to rest in the Lord?

I am not going to resign myself to being burdened and weary.  I hope to be resolute resting in the Lord and reporting the positives from each week.

God Bless us Homeschoolers, Every one of us.

Posted by hmschlmomto2

I can't possibly tell you how much you and I have in common. I have been struggling with whether or not to put my two 7th graders back in school as well - a Christian school. But they are behind in Math and English and I know it would be difficult for them as well.

I also have fibro and have been battling with it (thanks to 3 days worth of rain) this weekend.

I'm going to add you to my friend's list. I think we are "two peas in a pod".

Pam