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10.27.2006
Alas....this is life
Well today is CD44 for me so I took an HPT yesterday and got a bfn...that is negative for non-ttc lingoers.
No big, right....after all my cycles are known to go 8 months, which obviously means no ovulation..and like I tell DH, no egg, no baby...simple right?
Why can't my heart understand that?
So this turns into my wanting to fulfill the call to be a Keeper of the Home...uh can someones tell that to my DH...he would flip out if I quit my job. The last time I talked to him about it, he went into panic mode, thinking he had to run right out and selll the truck he bought (that costs us twice as much a month as the other used car we were trying to pay off)
Sad and once again only able to talk about it here...even my "friend" is all like, it's just like me having to kick my husband out to make him see what he will lose if he doesn't shape up, or so hard trying to decide to homeschool- whatever...homeschool is Le Easy choice...only choice as far as I am concerned.
She says maybe the Lord wants me to quit my job regardless of what my husband will think, spend mucho time with my DS and get into a routine and then HE will bless us with more children...but I informed her that I had been a stay at home mom in the past and no babies then...so...
Even now she is relating to me that when she found out she was pg with #6 after just having had #5, she was mad at the Lord but by the next day she was laughing because she realized HE was going to do whatever HE wanted, and I too should just laugh and accept that and forgive the Lord and everyone else who has hurt me by things they've said to me while I struggle with this and then the Lord will forgive me...
again, how does that relate to my situation...she has no idea what it means to really desire a bigger family...she already has one and since her DH is "alergic" to condoms and supposedly BCpills upset her...they will just keep on having babies until she hits menopause.
I am going to an adoption seminar...but yeah right... $30,000...whatever. And they say you are not paying for the child because that would be illegal, but the fees are so high, it's ridiculous |
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About Me
Charlotte Mason style Home Education Journey with One Dear Son who is praying to be a big brother and soon!
"He maketh the barren woman to keep house, and to be a
joyful mother of children. Praise ye the LORD."-Psalm 113:9
"And all thy children shall be taught of the LORD; and great shall be the peace of thy children." Isaiah 54:13
"I have no greater joy than to hear that my children walk
in truth." --III John verse 4
Wisdom is the principal thing; therefore get wisdom: and with all thy getting get understanding.
---Proverbs 4:7
And the LORD visited Hannah, so that she conceived, and bare three sons and two daughters. And the child Samuel grew before the LORD.
--I Samuel 2:21
Praise be to YHVH who is weekly bringing those who hunger and thirst for the whole WORD,
not just what the church says is important....did you know the first century and then some
Believers knew that accepting the Messiah meant being grafted in to the Hebrew faith?
They didn't want to be called gentiles. Paul was always trying to show the physical and
non-physical Jews that they were all Jews spiritually. He many times said the law is not
void and I know those of you out there who say you are saved live by the 10 commandments and
of course the summary of Messiah's own words to love YHVH and then our neighbor....both just
ways of summing up all of Torah which really just expounds on the TEN. It wasn't until
those in authority started saying any caught Judaizing will be put to death that we stopped
observing the true Sabbath and stopped keeping the Feasts and started saying things like the
NLT says in Ephesians 2:15 that the Jewish law/system has been done away with...that's misleading.
The only thing done away with was the animal sacrifice needed to cover sins. Yeshua doesn't just
cover them, HE forgives them. What a truly AWESOME YHVH we serve!!! I pray everyone's ears and
eyes would be opened to desire to know and seek out the whole TRUTH and not just blindly follow
church leaders.
Praise Report:
thankful to have a DH and a DS. my guys!!
Back when I watched my cousins 4th child- Roger - I didn't think I was all that nice to him. But he's seen my and DS's picture at Nanna's and he says "that boy would not share his toys and his mommy told him that is not nice. I like his mommy she was very nice to me" :smile:
Prayer:
Unsaved loved ones to find/or to turn back to Yeshua. For Yeshua to reveal to them
the truth of Hebrew Roots so we can be in one accord. See I Corinthians 1:10
and if it's not too much to ask...I've had to endure hearing about several pregnancy announcements and birth announcements recently. I feel like I am dying inside. The pain is enormous. I really just want more children and HIS Word says they are the best type of physical blessing. I am not asking for riches or material things. I know all HE has to do is think/speak my body into being a "baby making machine" and it would be done. Praying for a miracle.
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