I was about 11 and I was in an interesting state of mind I wanted something but I did not know what it was. I was missing that joy that is supposed to be down in your heart, but there was nothing. And in my little mind I said it has to out there some where so as much I could (in a pastor’s house) I stared searching. And I don’t remember when, but I found music not just any music but country music. That was my (get out) when the house got to stressful I would sneak out and listen to music and it made me feel great it gave me that little bit of joy but only a little bit. You see only God can give that fulfilling joy that no one can take away. This went on about 1 year. Then when I was 12 I got saved the Lord in His mercy pulled me out of the miry clay. It didn’t take the constant bleak cloud that was in my house and the pressure of being in a pastor’s family away.
I must say, although I didn’t like being in a pastor’s family, God knew what he was doing when he put me there. I think it prepared me for life in a large way. And also during this time our family traveled around to church to church it was miserable. I hated almost every minute of it. But then again God had something in His mind. You see, God was preparing me to leave that environment because God was giving me lessons in those days so I could function now.
Back to the story, we traveled around for about 2 more years then we got a call from some family and they told my dad that a church was going down and they thought that he should come to that church and help it back up on its feet. So we as a family went to that church. My family liked it and Dad decided that we stay at that church and help it out, so we did.
It wasn’t long before the current pastor was living so he asked my dad to pastor it and so my dad did. My dad said that he would just pastor it for while until it was able to get its own church. It did start to grow, but the more people came, the more he (my dad) got to become a control freak. It took about 2 years for it to come to this.
While my dad got harder and harder, the young people began to get some joy out of going to church for the wrong reasons. They stared passing contraband (moves, music, ext) and that slowly grew till just about every one of the young people was involved and of course things got out of control so I the pastor’s son became the leader of this “movement” so I could keep things where they should be. No one could pass any thing without my knowing it.
This role in the church was not official, but among the young people it was. I kept them out of a lot of trouble. And thru this time I was watching a young lady at the church. I was given a dare about the same young lady to get her to like (with out getting in trouble by her parents) country music. I was given 1 year. So at first I was after her mainly so I could win $300 but then some thing else got me, I think it was LOVE but I’m not sure!!
Another family began coming to the church and I became very good friends with one of the boys. Until this day I don’t know what brought them to there (but then again God knows what He is doing). I got really close to him then my dad told me that he didn’t like the way he acted so he didn’t want me to talk to him any more. I didn’t listen to my dad. I had chosen this because this kid was having a hard time in his life and the last thing he needed to hear was that I wasn’t allowed to be with him because he wore a necklace. But this is one of the reasons my dad said that. This is where I didn’t like what I saw at all. (Judging people by their appearances)
This is not in the bible at all but it’s done all the time.
P.S If I offended any by my post just don’t come to it
And I don’t have a problem with Baptist or my dad but I do have a problem with
What they do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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