I am the wife of a soldier, and the mother of two little ones (ages 3 and 1). I am passionate about my God, my family, and my country. I chose the title for my blog because I started it around the time that we found out my husband would be going to Iraq. I am so proud of his service to our country. Also I am constantly striveing to become more like christ. Hence the title "passionate patriot conforming to 'His' image.
I will be ordering some more Thoene books to read
Jan. 21, 2008~ Today has been a very bad day. ~
My hubby and I are having communication problems. They still do not have the internet wired to their rooms yet, and the line to get to a computer is at least 45 minutes. So it has now been over 3 weeks since I have heard his voice, and I am still only getting an e-mail about 1 a week. I was so frustrated that I sent him a hateful letter this morning, and walked away from my computer. Of course that is when he finally got online. Not only did he express his unhappiness with my letter, but I missed him. Almost a week of checking IM every 5 to 10 minutes to see if he is online and I missed him.
I was so sick. I put the kids down for their naps early and then I just sat and cried my heart out. And now I will have to wait another week to hear from him.
At first I was so proud to be able to sacrifice for my country, but today I don't feel that way. After three months of this, I think it is really crappy, and I want him to come home. I can't stop crying and I wish I had someone to hold me right now. I don't know how I am going to do this for another 12 months.
Pick yourself up, dust yourself off and start over. Resolve to not let this make you upset, resolve to be joyful in any situation. And remember "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." 2 Cor. 12:9
I know how you feel. In your post...I see my situation too. My husband is also in Iraq and they have to wait in line to use computer and phone. It's so hard being here and doing this. I wish I could hug you right now, but I know it doesn't take the place of your hubby. You can be in a room full of people and still be lonely. You're angry at him...but all you want is him. I know, I understand. There are so many of us out here. Most of America does not understand the sacrifice we make every day. Please go read my blog! I hope it will encourage you.
God Bless,
Heather
http://redmay323.blogspot.com/
