I am the wife of a soldier, and the mother of two little ones (ages 3 and 1). I am passionate about my God, my family, and my country. I chose the title for my blog because I started it around the time that we found out my husband would be going to Iraq. I am so proud of his service to our country. Also I am constantly striveing to become more like christ. Hence the title "passionate patriot conforming to 'His' image.
I will be ordering some more Thoene books to read
Mar. 3, 2008~ many blessings ~
Recently several families from the church my family had attended, left the church because they were deeply hurt by the church leadership. My family was one of them. It all happened within a month of my husband being deployed. It hurt so deeply that those I loved and trusted could kick me while I was down. It literally knocked the wind out of me. I was so upset when it happened that I was hyperventelating, and my mother had to drive over to calm me down.
I have been reluctant to choose a new church home without my husband. In the meantime, I am attending church with my parents. The paster of my parents church and his wife, are such sweet people, that I feel safe there for a while. Normally, when I attend a new church I jump in with both feet and make it home. I have never gone to a church were I was not heavily involved. I find it hard to jump in 100% at this time though, because I do not know where I will be in ten months. It makes it hard to form bonds with people.
So I am in a very lonely place in my life right now. I also, because of everything, have basically no support structure set up except for my mom and dad. Who have been wonderful, but I don't want to drain them either.
There is a Charlotte Mason support group that started up shortly before my husband was deployed, but I have not been able to attend one yet. I really wanted to go this month. One, because I need to support, and two I need an excuse to get away from my children for a bit. I love my children, but since their daddy left they have been so clingy and it is draining me. I need to get recharged. Anyway, all of my family is busy the day of the meeting, and I didn't know who to ask for help.
So I sent an email out on our coop email group. I explained my situation, and asked for help from anyone who would be willing to watch my kids. There are several ladies in our group, that I know well enough to have them watch my kids, but I didn't know them well enough to ask them for help. ( I struggle with asking for help. Not only is it a pride thing, but when you ask for help, you open yourself up for rejection. Therefore, I have to feel really close to someone to ask for help)
Anyway, I was so overwhelmed by the wonderful responses that I got back. So many families saying they would love to help me. Many of them said that they would love to help me anytime, not just the day that I mentioned, but anytime that I needed a break. Some of them had other obligations, and were not available to watch my kids, but has such encouraging words for me. It moved me to tears.
I am so blessed to have such wonderful christian homeschool mothers that are so willing to help another mother in need. I cannot remember the last time I have felt so loved and blessed.
