Well, after my temper tantrum early this morning about my cell phone, I received my cell phone bill and realized I don't even think we'll have money for a pay as you go phone. Our bill is due no later than the 17th, no way that I see, we'll have the money. And though I have a question emailed to our cell phone company and I'm waiting for an answer, it seems like to do the pay as you go, you need certain phones. So to sign up for it, we would have buy a new phone, not reasonable or possible. So, I gave up on it, and have resigned myself to no cell phones. Don't get me wrong, I'm still bummed, and I'm hoping for a miracle, but it doesn't look promising.
So as my day progresses, I'm in a 'blue' funk that I just can't snap out of. Just one of those down times, which I really can't stand. At dinner, which was a bit stressful because of kids acting up, we were making microwave popcorn. Half way through the cooking, the microwave starts making some weird noises and smoking. Yep, there goes our microwave. This is where my title for this entry comes in, because if I don't I'll . Now, again, this seems to be just an inconvenience, and we can live without a microwave, right? I'm not sure. Paulie has sensory issues, and only eats certain foods. One of the main foods is chicken nuggets, which he likes cooked in the microwave oven. I tried them once in the oven, nope, no dice, he wouldn't eat them. It might be hard to understand why we just don't 'make' him eat them, unless you are dealing with a sensory issue child. So anyway, I'm going to try to make them in our toaster oven tomorrow, maybe they won't be so crispy then. We'll probably get a new microwave next Friday. But it will come out of the money we were going to use for the couple of presents we thought of getting the kids. Paul still might be able to make up some hours at work, so I'm praying that those hours will make up the difference. I guess we'll just see.
So my 'blue' feeling is still here, though I'm trying to focus on the Lord more. It seems like all of us are just 'cranky' all the time. I think it's interesting though that my blue or feeling down times, usually come when I'm focused on if I'm doing things right. I mean, I know we are to learn and grow in the Lord. But when I start to focus on "Am I disappointing my Lord, husband or kids?". "Are my thoughts and actions so bad there's no return?" "Should I expect my kids to not get so angry or complain when I can't stop myself?" All good questions, I'm sure. But for some reason, they become my focus, then I get so down on myself for not being perfect, or fearing not being perfect, the blues come. So I'm trying to get my focus off of me and whether I'm being perfect and making everyone happy with how I am, and focus on my Lord. It's not easy. I'm such a 'do' person, that to not be able to 'do' anything, but just trust that the Lord loves me, even when I'm not perfect and 'doing', is so very hard. But that's what I have to learn to accept.
So yes, prayers for the cell phones and microwave would be nice, but prayers for me and my family are what I could truly use. Prayers that we would just enjoy each other and not be so cranky with each other. Prayers that I would keep my focus on the Lord, and not on if I'm being 'good' enough. Prayers that we will all remember, like my sweet hubby said tonight, that no matter what, we still have each other.
Hey girl thought you must have been posting a long one, Man please dont mention the microwave, ours I think is about to give up on us also the inside is looking really bad now, and just today my hubbies hot dogs looked like they were cooked over a fire( charcoal) and he was like whoa look what the microwave did. Prayers are being sent your way!! WALK TALL( as John mellancamp would sing)
I do have a sensory issue child and I feel your pain. The only reason I have a cell phone is because my parents pay for it and it is a very limited plan. (I am very thankful for that phone.) But that doesn't help your situation except knowing that you are not all alone. Misery loves company, right?
Lifting you up,
Jenn
Hi JoAnn, just to let you know that the only cell phone we have ever had is a Go Phone (pay as you go - you can find them at Walmart for not too much, the only problem is that with the first year of owning them, you have to keep $10 worth in them each month), that I only use when necessary - like emergencies. We aren't poor, but just choose to have no bills/debt except for the mortgage & bills like electricity. Survival is possible.:) I don't know, but if you wanted to really keep your cell phones, perhaps you could cancel the phone service at your home and just use the cell phones for a while.
And our microwave died a month ago and although it's been an adjustment, so far so good. We are trying to see how long we can go without one and see if we can do without it forever. This might sound kinda silly, but some of what has helped me adjust is reading about the dangers of microwaves, like this: http://www.mercola.com/article/microwave/hazards2.htm
We do have a toaster/broiler oven that helps (oh, and by the way, they cook chicken fingers the same as a oven - crispy. What might help is if you cook it for no longer than you have too and sprinkle the chicken fingers with water beforehand to give it a more soggy/microwave feel.) Does your son eat anything else but chicken fingers?
I can do without a lot, as long as I have the Lord and my family, therewith, I am content.
Praying for you my friend!
Hi JoAnn! Don't give up on the pay as you go cell phone. Yes, you do have to use certain phones, but I think I have seen them as cheap as $10.00. I'm not sure how good they are, but if it is for emergencies, it will probably work for that. Most of the time you have to buy minutes also, I think I've seen them for around $20.00. Just look around, you might find even a better deal than that, especially here at Christmas time. I don't know how strained you are, if that is out of your budget amount, but the cost for pay as you go isn't as bad as it use to be. Also the cost of microwaves have really come down too. Of course, I will still be praying for you.
Sounds like it never ends, doesn't it? I have Net10, which comes with the phone. It's 10 cents a minute all the time. For $30 you get 300 minutes (plus the phone) and you have 3 months to use it--so that's like $10/month if you're careful! That's all I have, since it's mostly an emergency phone. I've never run out before the date yet. I control my use very tightly, and depend on my land line for regular stuff. The cell is in my pocket on walks or in the car.
Hmmm what does this "sensory" issue mean? I'm wondering because I have a houseful of kids that anything I fix (trained well, I figured), but the youngest doesn't like anything! We've "made" him and he's thrown up, we've pulled privileges, but he just wouldn't eat "normal" food like any kind of meat that wasn't ground up in a taco (no whole chicken, etc.) He just hated it all! Drove me NUTS! I sometimes thought, "There is something seriously wrong with this kid's taste buds."
Do you suppose there really is an issue here? One out of four perfectly-good eaters. Oh, and this child won't eat vegetables---except for raw carrots. Now, I ask you? What is the problem???? On "garden meal" nights he would go to bed hungry--no special treatment at my house. I didn't want to spoil him, you know. He would eat a piece of homemade bread and eat his one required "bite" of everything and not care that he wasn't getting dessert. He knew he could hold out for breakfast, which he liked, except oatmeal.
Now I wonder....perhaps he really DID (DOES) have a sensory issue with his taste buds, you know?
He is 16 and still only has a few things he will really EAT. He is polite and tries everything, but eats only a few bites. I worry that he is not going to grow properly on cold cereal, peanut butter/jelly sandwiches, and hot dogs/baked beans, and bean burritos.
I'd be interested in knowing how you came to your conclusions about your little ones. But if Ryan does have it, let me tell you---he hasn't grown out of it yet and I feel very sorry for his future (if any) wife.
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Yep, there goes our microwave. This is where my title for this entry comes in, because if I don't 
I'll 
. Now, again, this seems to be just an inconvenience, and we can live without a microwave, right? I'm not sure. Paulie has sensory issues, and only eats certain foods. One of the main foods is chicken nuggets, which he likes cooked in the microwave oven. I tried them once in the oven, nope, no dice, he wouldn't eat them. It might be hard to understand why we just don't 'make' him eat them, unless you are dealing with a sensory issue child. So anyway, I'm going to try to make them in our toaster oven tomorrow, maybe they won't be so crispy then. We'll probably get a new microwave next Friday. But it will come out of the money we were going to use for the couple of presents we thought of getting the kids. 
Paul still might be able to make up some hours at work, so I'm praying that those hours will make up the difference. I guess we'll just see.
