Well, I think we have finally worked through our emotions on not buying a house this summer. My heart was really set on setting up a new house this summer. I was planning on packing & moving, and looking forward to painting and setting up 'my' house. Once that fell through, I went into a bit of a funk dealing with it. I was just blah and bored. I just wasn't doing what I wanted to do, which was move, and it was hard to get motivated to do anything. But I kept giving it to the Lord, and getting the things done around here that needed to get done. Then finally on Tuesday I bought a piece of wood for our broken bedroom window (to hold it open) and I put a new screen in the window, and that helped tremendously. I know that sounds strange, so I'll explain. I was putting off doing anything in this house we rent because I felt it wasn't our home anymore. I didn't want to put a lot of time or energy in it, I wanted to do that in my own home. Then our house feel through, and with it came the very real possibility that we won't be buying or moving at all. I still didn't want to think of this house, that has been our home for almost 2 years, as a good home anymore. I was getting irritated by little things that use to never bother me. The home hadn't changed at all, but my outlook on the home had. I was focusing on all the things I didn't like about this home, and refused to continue to make it 'my' home. That all changed on Tuesday.
After our play day at the park, I made myself go to Home Depot and buy some wood and have it cut to size to fit our broken window in the bedroom, and to fix the screen. I had been putting it off for a long time, then figured, we're moving, why bother. Not the best attitude to have. After my time with the Lord, He reminded me, even if we moved, we shouldn't leave the window screen in that kind of condition. Plus I needed to accept that this is still our home, and I should be working on it as I've done for the past year and a half. Though it seems small, it was a big step for me. I worked on the screen in the afternoon, then Paul brought up some ideas for some new bookcases we need for the house. We still have about 5 boxes of books in the garage that we could never unpack before. We've decided to save up some money and get another bookcase and unpack those books. We are living in this house, and we are going to continue to make it our home. And if the Lord brings a house for us to buy, then great, but we are not going to stop our living in this home, waiting for that to happen. We feel better already.
But in the midst of working on the screen, I wasn't bent over properly and my back started hurting. Nothing too bad, and it seemed to be fine by night time. Wednesday morning I woke up and when I bent over to get a t-shirt out of my dresser drawer, I felt my back muscles pull. I still went for my morning work, and did my work out, but as the day progressed, I felt it get tighter and tighter. It wasn't too bad when I went to sleep last night, but today it's still hurting me a bit. Of course I did over do it a bit too much this morning. My thought was to get a dinner done early, when my back was feeling o.k., so we would have a dinner tonight, unlike last night. So what do I do? I make chicken pasta salad for dinner, salsa, french bread, egg salad for lunch, ran to WM and picked up some milk & cheese, and a new fan for Paulie's room. I cleaned up our old fan and put together the new fan, so our house is nice and cool now. So I got a lot more done than I planned, but now I can rest the rest of the day. My back does still feel sore, but hopefully it will continue to heal.
Our VBS will be starting July 13th, and like last year, I'm helping make some things on the computer, besides helping at the VBS too with administration. It feels good to get busy with some other things, and since I really shouldn't be on my feet too much (ok, well except for this morning ), it's been keeping me busy on the couch. I'm also continuing to work on my shawl which is now the size for a baby. I don't really like big crochet projects, I like to finish things quickly, so this is a bit hard. But I really like how it's looking and I really want to use it this fall, so I keep plugging along. I do a few rows every day. Once I get off the computer today, I'll do some more.
We are staying home this year for 4th of July. We weren't sure if we should go to my family's house or not. But my sister, who usually has the 4th of July party, has to work all weekend. And we've been wondering how our town here celebrates it, so we were praying, trying to decide what to do. Then Sarah, who helps out with VBS too, joined up to help build a float that will be in our local parade. She was also asked if she would want to be in the parade too. She was quite excited, and that helped us decide to stay here in town. I really like that she is stepping up to help with things, and I really would like to see the fireworks out here. It will be different, but fun.
We'll have a few weeks to relax after the 4th and VBS, then I'll start looking at our school stuff, and start lessons in the middle of August. Even though it's not the summer we had planned, it's still going to be a full, fun summer. Now if I can just get my back to feel better, I could actually enjoy it a bit more.
I am going to throw this out there for just because I want to say it... ok... how crazy would it be if the the home owner of the house you are renting wanted to sell it would you buy if the price is right? Then again YOU never know what the LORD has in store for you, but I thought how cool that would be if this came up some time down the road...
How exciting for Sarah and thats great she is branching out in that area and making some great friends I am sure
I did the detachment process too when we were getting ready to leave our home. I find myself doing it here when we think of possibly moving again. ugh..
Wow, what a post. I understand that you have been going thru a funk. I have been doing that too. Mine is a lot different than your but none the less, a funk. I am so happy that you are coming out of it. It really takes a lot out of you. I think I am on the other side and pulling out too. Life just doesn't always go the way I think it should. Thanks for the encouraging post. It helped me.
Boy, you know, you could be talking to me! I really have felt similar lately, not wanting to do anything here because it is not my home. I did decide that I need to make the office work better for us and so I moved out a rug and will work on the boxes one by one this weekend. It looks better already. But it will take a lot of prayer to think of this house as my home. I pray you have a good rest of your week. Thanks for stopping by and commenting on RR.
Jenn
I am glad you were able to do things that helped you start feeling better and pull out of the funk. I think that is great. Hope your back feels better very soon!
I'm glad you have found some peace about your housing situation. Truly you never know what God has is store for you. I was all set about 2 years ago to buy a new house. I had the perfect house picked out (to build). Now the only problem (besides money lol!) was the new subdivision was nowhere near the location I was wanting. Well, I was willing to settle. Things just did not come together. It was going to be a little more expensive than we thought and we decided to wait. Well, as it turns out, our finances got much worse and we probably would have lost the house. We had no idea that we would have 4 hospitalizations and 3 emergency room visits. But in addition to that, the house builder that we were looking at with the house we love has announced that they will be starting a new subdivision in the very spot that we really wanted to build in. I think I would have regretted it if we had gone ahead and "settled" for the other subdivision.
Hey girl!
I like the idea of sprucing up your current home a little until the Lord gives you another one. It's hard to believe that you all have lived there for two years! Time flies. I am thankful that your back is not too painful, but you need to rest some this weekend, okay? Thank you for your sweet comments.
Blessings, Karen
I SOOOO know how you feel about moving. I am wanting to move, yet not wanting to move, etc. I can't make up my mind with what I really want! We may leave AZ soon - or we may be sticking around for a bit. I don't like things being up in the air!
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I hope your back feels better. I applaud your attitude on working on your rental house. We're going through a bit of that here too. Deciding what to fix and what not to (due to budget or lack there of). Enjoy your summer.
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But I kept giving it to the Lord, and getting the things done around here that needed to get done. Then finally on Tuesday I bought a piece of wood for our broken bedroom window (to hold it open) and I put a new screen in the window, and that helped tremendously. I know that sounds strange, so I'll explain. I was putting off doing anything in this house we rent because I felt it wasn't our home anymore. I didn't want to put a lot of time or energy in it, I wanted to do that in my own home. Then our house feel through, and with it came the very real possibility that we won't be buying or moving at all. I still didn't want to think of this house, that has been our home for almost 2 years, as a good home anymore. I was getting irritated by little things that use to never bother me. The home hadn't changed at all, but my outlook on the home had. 
I still went for my morning work, and did my work out, but as the day progressed, I felt it get tighter and tighter. It wasn't too bad when I went to sleep last night, but today it's still hurting me a bit. Of course I did over do it a bit too much this morning. My thought was to get a dinner done early, when my back was feeling o.k., so we would have a dinner tonight, unlike last night. So what do I do? I make chicken pasta salad for dinner, salsa, french bread, egg salad for lunch, ran to WM and picked up some milk & cheese, and a new fan for Paulie's room. I cleaned up our old fan and put together the new fan, so our house is nice and cool now. 
So I got a lot more done than I planned, but now I can rest the rest of the day. My back does still feel sore, but hopefully it will continue to heal.
), it's been keeping me busy on the couch. I'm also continuing to work on my shawl which is now the size for a baby. 
I don't really like big crochet projects, I like to finish things quickly, so this is a bit hard. But I really like how it's looking and I really want to use it this fall, so I keep plugging along. I do a few rows every day. Once I get off the computer today, I'll do some more. 
