I know you're all probably wondering where I've been and frankly, so have I.  Though I blog on my regular blog every day, I find myself wanting to be a little more honest here, where my family and friends can't find me.

I started this blog as a place to discuss my homeschool triumphs and tragedies, because I knew there would be other people out there going through the same things.  And it has been so wonderful to have the encouragement I've needed.  But the truth is, lately I haven't had any triumphs.  I haven't had any tragedies.  I've pretty much given up.

So here we are on our vacation in Florida.  I started school three weeks early so we could take this time off without falling behind.  I am discouraged.  I don't want to go back to school on the 10th.  I'm just so tired.  I'm tired of planning lessons, but I'm more tired of planning lessons that don't get taught.  I'm tired of math, but I'm more tired of children who won't do their math.  I'm tired of sitting in the school room, but I'm more tired of sitting in the school room waiting for children who don't come even when they've been called a hundred times.

This is bad, folks.  I don't usually get to this point until April.  Here it is November and I want it to end.  I feel like I'm totally screwing up here.  And I don't know how to get out of this hole.