Oct. 7, 2008 - Today was so much better!
Thank you to all of you who listened and/or gave advise!
Today was so much better!! I am going to stay positive about it and decide that this will continue. After receiving input from various people, including a most wonderful and lovely lady from my CRS, I put a plan into action today and the improvement was 110%!! She did not take all day to do her lessons. She got it done in under three hours. (She got house points!!!) I can't tell you how happy that makes me. Granted, we didn't have anywhere to go today, she didn't have any extra chores to do, etc. that would have maybe caused her to delay in other areas, but still, I count this as a huge victory and I am believing we can carry it through.
Yaaay!!!
Oct. 6, 2008 - Why is my daughter SOOOO SLLLOOOOWWW???
Ok, this is really just a rant, and I'm not looking for answers so much as for somebody to say, been there, done that!!
My youngest daughter has to be the world's slowest child. I thought my older daughter was slow! She has improved a great deal as she's gotten older, but even at that age, man, my youngest is slower.
She has no trouble doing her work, academically speaking, for the most part. She just drags her feet. She piddles. She daydreams. Even when she is doing her work, she is very slow and deliberate. That CAN be a good thing! But not when it is causing an hour's worth of work to take all day!!
This is not just school either, lest I get fifty people telling me to change curricula. The curricula is not the problem. This problem has literally just cropped up in the last six months to a year. I noticed it last year somewhat but it has gotten worse. She is slow in every area of her life. She takes forever to eat her supper. She takes forever to take her bath. She takes forever to get ready for bed. She takes forever to get ready to go. I got up thirty minutes earlier on Sunday in effort not to be late for church and we were still late for church. It seems no matter how much time I allow, she still uses up all that time and still isn't done. Even in Sunday school, she is one of the only ones not to finish her papers and it isn't because it's too hard. She can't even seem to finish something as simple as a coloring paper half the time because she's so slow.
When she does a job of any kind, whether it be school or chores, or anything, she takes for*ev*er*. I tell her to clean her room, which shouldn't take more than a couple of hours at the most, and it takes her all day.
I have tried almost everything to try and get her to move more quickly. I've done rewards and I've done punishments. I've tried to encourage her and I've tried admonishing her. The other day when she was cleaning her room, I even tried to appeal to her by pointing out how much more time she would have to play (outside, on the computer, anything) if she didn't take forever to clean her room. Didn't matter. She says she's doing the best she can, and maybe she is. Some people are just slow. I tend to move at the speed of light most of the time, so maybe I just don't get it!! But it's driving me crazy. Even my husband is wondering what is going on, in particular with school. My oldest is in sixth grade and it is not uncommon for her to be done with her school work in three hours or less. Knowing that she has way more work to do than her sister and that the younger really should be the first to finish, my husband inquires, "why is it taking her so long?" I am afraid I don't have an answer to that!!
AAAAAAAAAAGGGGHHHHHHHH!
Ok, thanks......
Seriously though, I really have found myself telling her many of the same things I told my older one. It really doesn't make any difference to me how long you take, so long as you get it done. You're not hurting anyone but yourself. You'd have so much more free time if you'd just get a move on and get things done......let'
Sep. 30, 2008 - Whew!!
Well, I just got all the changes migrated over to the updated template. I think it looks good. Please let me know how it looks to you!
It certainly seems like a lot has happened since I last wrote. I did end up getting to sing in choir, but only barely. I took medicine, rested, and drank lemon and honey. It got me through singing but then my voice was all but gone. Oh, and the most wonderful blessing of all was that a dear family that I was hoping would get to come to church came!! I was so happy and excited to see them there. My friend (the mom of the family) came again on Sunday night! :D
Other news......my husband, after considering it for a very long time, has decided to try and sell his business. He has it listed and right now he has one person interested. This has been a long time coming but he has finally decided now is the time. If he sells it, we can move forward with the adoption almost right away!! :D He will, of course, build up another business. So I'm praying for the Lord's Will in this. If He wants us to sell it, it'll sell........
Brisingr is coming along great!! I am so excited about it. It is the best book in the series by far. The most recent couple of chapters especially really took me by surprise, which is unusual. I read so much that it is hard to surprise me where plot points are concerned. But it actually made me gasp at one point. I so totally should have seen it coming and for some reason I didn't! Anyway, good stuff!!
The girls have been having a hard time with school the past little while. Dda still hasn't earned house points but once. So I guess Ddl gets the house cup this month! Their lack of motivation hasn't been helped by my lack of motivation, and the latter part of last week and so far this week, I've not felt the greatest. I am definitely on the mend now so I'm hoping we'll get in a better groove. :D
I also have to get on the ball about my co-op lesson plans.....oh dear, I don't want to think about it. I had the first five weeks done and that is quickly passing. I need to get the rest done!!! Yikes!!
My great uncle passed away so we're off to the funeral home. More again soon.......
Sep. 24, 2008 - Does this blog look funny to you?
That's really annoying. Really. Annoying. Apparently my screen size and resolution is bigger than most people's, because I got my blog all set up and looking great on my end, only to discover that it doesn't look the same to others. So, if you're looking at this blog and thinking something looks wonky, it's probably because everything shifted as a result of differences in the screen size. Bummer. Unfortunately, there is nothing I can do about it.
ETA, Shawn from HSB is planning to take a look at the template. He says this template is a few years old and it has some bugs that need to be worked out. He's planning to take a look at updating it and then I can redo the blog. Hopefully, that will fix it, but unfortunately I will have to redo all the work I've done. So be watching for updates......
Sep. 11, 2008 - Feeling better today!
This may sound stupid, but it's not really that I want to have a baby so badly anymore. My kids are getting very independent and I'm seeing a light at the end of the tunnel, KWIM? But still, when the Lord lays something on your heart,it's not easy, at least not for me, to just say, "no, Lord, I don't think I'll do that..." tee hee There are times when I want it and other times when I'm saying, "seriously, Lord, are you sure?"
I do want His Will for us though and I have felt very strongly for a long time that there is a baby somewhere that needs us......If that is the Lord's Will, I am willing, no matter how impractical or inconvenient or illogical it may seem. But I certainly can't do it if my husband isn't on the same page!!
I'm feeling much better. Several people have written to me today and gave me uplifting words. The Lord knows my heart and He knows that I needed to hear it. He is faithful!
Sep. 11, 2008 - Thank you for your prayers!
I just want to take a moment to say thank you to those of you that listened and have been praying for my situation. I still do not have an answer but I am believing the Lord is going to work everything out. I also received confirmation from the Lord that He has heard my prayers and the prayers of others and that is all I can ask. So if you feel led to continue to pray, by all means do so, but I don't think I'll be sending out any more requests. I know now what I've got to do and I am trying very hard to let the Lord help me have patience.
I do want to say though that I still feel the devil is using this to attack me. There have been some people who, for whatever reason, whether they just don't understand or don't believe it or they just haven't been through anything similar before, have said unkind, unhelpful things, in an attempt to be helpful. I truly do not believe that a single one of those people meant what they said to be unkind, therefore there is no condemnation of them on my part. I believe the devil uses that sort of thing to undermine one's faith and to undermine what the Lord would accomplish. The Lord has used every single thing said, whether encouraging or not, to benefit me somehow.
So, to God be the glory for heard and answered prayers and for Him being able to help me, yes even me,with patience!!
Aug. 30, 2008 - Revival service today was awesome!
Bro. **** prophesied that the Lord had a mighty miracle in store for John, something so awesome he almost wouldn't be able to stand it and Sis. *** said that she sincerely hoped that she was around on the day when the Lord revealed Himself to John in the way He told her He had planned. I asked him what he thought it could be and he said he had no idea. I can't wait to see what the Lord has in store!!
Aug. 27, 2008 - On my heart today.....
Earlier today, I wrote to friends and asked them to pray for me. I had something I needed to discuss with my husband. I believe now that the Lord has gone before me and prepared his heart to receive what I had to say. When I have something very important to say, I sometimes write to him so that my thoughts are ordered. So I wrote to John to tell him my thoughts on having another child and gave him information about embryo adoption. He received the information well, much better than I thought he would.
Most of you know my story about trying to conceive and how I knew that the Lord has a baby in store for me. We have been up and down and side to side on this journey. I have been turned every which way, emotionally that is, and my husband is part of the reason. I don't mean that ugly, it's just that when we couldn't conceive in the way we thought we should, he took it pretty hard. Self-preservation and all of that. He gave up hope and lost faith in God's Promises. God had told both of us that we were going to have a baby. He then later told me that it wouldn't happen the way I thought it would.
So anyway, the Lord has been dealing with me once again. I have been in turmoil over the last week because of not knowing what to do. I feel that it is a very good possibility that we are meant to pursue embryo adoption. After agonizing over this and trying to decide what/if/when to raise the issue with my husband, I decided today was the day and I asked for prayer.
We have talked about it and it was much more positive than I could have ever hoped! I didn't expect him to give me an answer on the spot by any means but I did want him to listen to me and the Lord's Leading and to commit to pray about it and carefully consider what the Lord would have us do. He has promised to do that. He was not at all negative like I thought he would be.
I don't know when I'll get an answer from him. I want him to take all the time he needs. But right now, I am feeling just his consideration of it is close to a miracle. He used to tell me he never wanted to adopt because he didn't want to raise someone else's child, he didn't think he could bond, we couldn't afford it, he was too old (the last of which has been his primary response any time I have talked about having a baby in any way recently), he was afraid the baby would have problems, etc. just on and on. When I brought this up to him, he didn't let on as if any of that was an issue!! Of course, adopting an embryo does solve some of those problems, which is one of the reasons I think it might be the answer for us, but still. I would have thought he would be more negative.:D
I believe in praying as specifically as possible so I wanted to share this with you. I have received two, possibly three if you count the one I'm not sure about, prophetic words regarding my baby. I know the Lord doesn't change His Mind and that if we don't receive the promise, it is because we didn't accept it. So please pray for us that we would be led by the Lord and that He would give us guidance and wisdom. We don't want to ask the Lord to bless what we're doing, we want to find out what the Lord is blessing and do that! We want the Lord's Will above all, so pray the Lord's Will be done, not only done, but made known to us, so that we can follow after it, where ever that might lead, and that there would be no doubt about what we're supposed to do. Pray for peace when do reach a decision either way.
Thank you all in advance for your prayers! I'll keep you all informed...
Nov. 29, 2006 - Responding to someone about TTC
I just "gave up" on the conception process a couple of months ago. We still feel that the Lord has another baby for us but we don't know when or how it will take place.
Conversations always come up about birth control and people always want to know what I think. The jest of it is that I do have convictions against birth control so we haven't used any form since my youngest was born nearly six years ago. Approximately 2.5 years ago, the Lord told us we were to try to have another child (after my husband for years had adamantly refused). Actually He told my husband. I had always known my family wasn't complete. Anyway, my husband kept it under his hat and prayed about it and sought the Lord to make sure he understood before mentioning it to me. So about 1.5 years ago, we began with a concerted effort to conceive. I found out I had fertility problems, etc. I went on medication, etc. The medication caused me to have cysts, etc. :D I have been off meds now for two months but I still have this one cyst remaining/growing.
We are no longer "trying" to have a baby, but we are still prayerful and hopeful that the Lord's Day will come for us to have this child. Her name is Rebekah Lynne.....
Apr. 30, 2006 - Amazing Service Today!
We had an amazing service at church today. We had an evangelist name Dennis Lewis. Bro. Lewis prophesied over me and John.
Laying his hand on John’s head, he said, Listen to me, I’m going to blow your mind right here, because the Holy Ghost just spoke to my spirit. Hallelujah, it won’t be long, my friend, you’re going to come into the fullness, not what people think that I’m fixing to say, not the fullness of the Godhead, in the fullness of God’s Purpose in your life. Hallelujah, you know what it feels like to be abased. You know what it feels like to abound. Not by might nor by power but My Spirit, says the Lord. From the top of his head to the sole of his feet, flow through his limbs, oh, Holy One! Hasten Your Word to perform it. The warfare that’s going on around him, give him strength to arise and to challenge the enemy, for Your Power is in him.
Give his family, give his descendents the necessary ingredients to prevail, for victory to come! Work Your Miracle Power, Father, I speak it in the Name of Jesus! Loose him, loose his mind, loose his tongue, loose his soul! Laying his hand on Nicole’s head, he said, Lord, the voices, many voices, some voices of confusion, I take authority over it. I release Your Spirit Lord, that is already in her, that already lives in her! Somebody say this is her day right now for her miracle. Somebody speak that right now.
As spoken by Bro. Dennis Lewis at Eagle Bend Apostolic Church, April 30, 2006, evening service
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