So this is the time of year when I begin evaluating everything in our homeschool.  The curriculum, the schedule, the boys' grades, etc.  I look at everything under a microscope.  This is not necessarily a bad thing because it allows me to find weak spots in my homeschool.  On the other hand, I tend to be over critical of the job I am doing.  I even get a little overwhelmed with the choices and I over analyze everything.  It did not help that I went to the graduation ceremony of our homeschool cover.  It was a lovely ceremony.  We had a graduating class of around 95 kids and they seemed so excited!  I watched as the Valedictorians and Saluditoriuans made their speeches, I clapped as the kids were awarded scholarships from various schools, and I shed a few tears as I watched the parents present their graduate with a much deserved diploma.  I couldn't help but fast forward in  my mind's eye to the point where I hope to be standing with each of my children presenting their diploma and marking the official entry into adulthood.

And that is where I began to panic.  Am I doing enough?  How did these guys get their scholarships?  How did these parents know exactly what to teach and when?  What about extracurricular?  Do I allow my children to socialize enough?  Do I provide them with enough opportunities outside our home?  Are they too busy?

I guess everyone goes through this at some point in time, but it is very trying when you are actually facing it.  I pray that God will lead me to the appropriate edcuation curriculum for each child and lead me in dealing with each set of needs and challenges.  I pray that during these next few weeks as I make decisions and begin to slowly get ready for our August start date, I will have the right focus and attitude for this rewarding yet difficult job.

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