Motive to my Madness
Sep. 20, 2007
Blessings in What Looks Like Failures
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Hello Again My Friends, This week has been a real challenge for me and at times I must admit I felt as if I had failed. (This wasn't something someone told me, just what my mind was telling me.) You see, September 7th was my last day of work at the doctor's office I have worked at for 7 years. I start my new job (clerical in a fertilizer company) on September 24th. I had 2 weeks at home and BIG PLANS! I was going to de-clutter my home and get everything organized BEFORE starting the new job. Things went pretty good the 1st week at home. I seemed to get a good bit accomplished. Then, last Saturday I started with what I thought was a head cold. By Sunday it was moving into my chest. By Tuesday I have full blown Bronchitis (still with the head part of it). I am on a powerful antibiotic and an inhaler to try to help break up the congestion in my chest. I am physically very tired. So, boy has this cramped my style in getting my home in order. I have hardly managed to get the bare essentials done. I do a little work, then I must take a LONG rest. Of course, to me, this feels like failure. I had so hoped and dreamed of getting things in order. As if this wasn't bad enough, I made an error in our check book. We have ONE automatic draft (our insurance) and I FORGOT to subtract it out! We have had this thing for YEARS but I still forgot! Of course, it hit before I was able to make a deposit. So needless to say I had a fee from my bank plus the amount of this automatic draft that I wasn't planning to pay this week.  Sounds pretty crummy...well, I am NOT going to sit and whine about what happened because as bad as this all sounds there is SOME good in it.  1st blessing: Wednesday (after a horrible night trying to sleep and cough on Tuesday) my DH and DDs left me in bed! I slept until 4:00pm. I could NOT believe I slept the whole day away, but I did feel better when I got up and started moving. 2nd blessing: This was also the day I discovered my mistake in the check book and I was so worried about what DH would say. Here is the blessing part. He reacted TOTALLY different than I imagined. I had imagined this grizzly bear asking me how I could forget something that has been coming out for years. You know, with the yelling and look of disappointment. (  ) That is NOT what he did though. His reply was more along the lines of "No, this is NOT a good thing, but you are almost always right on top of things. The bills get paid because you do it. You know when things are due and you take care of them. You usually do very well with this and I am sure this is not as bad as it seems right now. You are human and humans do make mistakes." Boy was I shocked and happy. I knew God had heard my desperate prayers. You see, I was more worried about DH's reaction than I was my actual mistake. This mistake COULD have cost us a lot of money, but in the end it cost us $25. Our bank has an overdraft protection plan. They paid the insurance and charged me $25 for not having the funds there. Praise to God, EVERYTHING outstanding had cleared BEFORE this insurance payment, so this was the ONLY overdraft we had! What a blessing.Blessing 3: DH & DDs all knew what I had planned as far as home went. While EVERYTHING I had hoped to get done hasn't, a lot has gotten done because of them. They have ALL pitched in and helped get things a little more under control. I am so BLESSED to have this family! Blessing 4: My mom has been helping DDs with their school to try to allow me to rest. So, after reviewing the blessings....my week has NOT been a total failure after all. Life throws obstacles and all sorts of bad things at us, but if we look hard enough we can usually find a blessing somewhere in there. As I was having my quiet time with God and reviewing this week with all of its ups and downs, the following verse spoke volumes to me. You see, I was still having my pity party when I started my quiet time. I had to ask forgiveness. God is showing me that I can be content no matter what my circumstances are as long as I go through those circumstances with HIM! Php 4:11 Not that I speak from want, for I have learned to be content in whatever circumstances I am. Thank you for visiting my blog. I pray something here has encouraged you in some way. May you have a blessed week end and upcoming week.  Love, Regina Please leave comments if you would like. I enjoy reading them.  |
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