Jun. 19, 2009
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You know, I really want to write. Everyday I think of something to write about, but I don't actually do it. Today I'm going to write... even if breakfast is a bit late as a result.
I'm in a funk and I feel like I'm struggling with everything. The Lord is pruning me, We're way behind in school, the house is usually messy, money is tighter than it's ever been, and I'm not having any fun. I feel like everything is toil right now, and I don't know how to snap myself out of it.
I've been reading a book called Holy Habits and in the course of the study I've read Psalm 90 each day for the past week. I know that I need to give my entire everything over to the Lord, but I've never figured out how to give Him the daily tasks and the little things... right now I'm not even giving Him the big ones. I've been praying 2 things... How Long? Not necessarily how long will I be struggling, because the struggle isn't important, my concern is that I'm not handling the struggle correctly and I know this, yet I still don't seem to be able to get in the right place to hand it over, and I'm not that person usually I don't hold on to "stuff", but I haven't figured out how to surrender right now. My other prayer is "Establish the work of my hands" I need to school my kids, keep my house up, Interact with my family in a fun way and try to save and make some money all on a daily basis. I need the Lord to establish the work of my hands because it's too much for me to do on my own.
This post is a bit of a downer, but time is up. Happier next time! |
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