I've been evaluating this past year and starting to think about what changes I'd like to make, etc.  One thing that keeps nagging me is this sense that this year could have been more productive, more fun, more interesting.  Now this isn't my old perfectionism rearing it's ugly head.  I am quick to step on it when it tries to ressurrect itself.  There is something else ....  

My challenge this year was that I never stuck with one program, one plan this year.  I was blessed with some great borrowed curriculum and resources to , but I never followed one path for longer than a month.  Why is that???   Then it hit me - I have "fear of curriculum committment"!    I feared being tied to a curriculum, having to follow through with a unit or study because ---- I didn't want to put forth the discipline?  I didn't want to be controlled by the curriculum?  I didn't want the accountability?  Hmmm.....

My oldest will be 10 in October.  Although he is a free thinker, lately he has been asking for more structure, for a plan to his days.  He wants to know what to expect and what is expected.  I guess part of the flexibility of home education is knowing when it is time to add more structure.     With God's grace I pray I can overcome my fear of curriculum and give me and my son some of the discipline and progress I think we both need.