Welcome to my blog!! I have had this for a while now and have gone thru some pretty bad stuff. I have been told that my blog was too depressing because my blog has been my journal taking me thru my depression. Thank you for those who have stuck with me!! I want this to be a fun place to go now! So please, come on in! Sit and Enjoy! And please, leave comments and feel free to give any suggestions on how to make this blog even better! Im still learning! http://www.homeschoolblogger.com/loughman98/ en-us Homeschool Blogger Thu, 3 Apr 2008 09:04:00 -0500 Thu, 3 Apr 2008 09:04:00 -0500 Im blogging about this because i do not ever want to forget it. 3 1/2 years ago, my brother died. we kinda expected it to happen sometime, but it seems that it happened so suddenly. so much that i wanted to say to him still. so much that i should've said to him still. so many regrets. im not sure ill ever get over it. still, after all this time, ill just start crying because i miss him so much. My birthday is next week, I will be the age that he was when he died. he loved birthdays, so around my birthday (mine more than his for some reason) i really struggle with all this. So, ive been having a hard time. when i was coming to terms with my abortion, i read a book called Tilly. it was about this women who had an abortion, but she had dreamed of her baby and how she was in heaven and she got to talk to her and it was just beautiful. i always (and still do sometimes) begged God to give me a "tilly dream" so i could see my baby. now, im not saying that a dream would be actually "seeing" the baby, but seeing in my mind is good enough for me for now. anyways, back to my actual dream, a while ago, i prayed that God would allow me to have a dream about my brother. just that "to see him one more time" type thing. dont get me wrong, i realize a dream is just a dream, but i wanted and needed that. God answered that prayer last night! I was in my house when someone came to my door and walked on in. he had a hoodie on with the hood over his head. He walked in and sat down on a chair that was weirdly placed right in front of the door. I asked my husband, "who is that?" i couldnt see a face. He said "You dont k now??" and then my brother slowly took the hat off and looked at me and smiled. It really was Robb!! now in my dream, he had been dead, he had been on a long trip somewhere, i dont remember where. but he gave me a hug, and i didnt want to let him go. He talked about how he hated where he had been and how glad he was to be back. And how glad i was to have him back! The look on his face, he was actually so happy to see me. I didnt want to wake up. I wanted to sit and talk to him, the way we used to. Play video games with him, stay up all night talking, order a pizza, then go outside and sit on the porch when it started raining. oh how i miss those things. How i miss my big bubby!! Now, Im not saying that I think that i actually saw him or anything, but Im praising God for letting me have a dream about him. I havent had one about him since he died. Ive tried. I wanted to so bad. Last night, I finally got to see him. Only in a dream, but i got a hug. Now i have to find a way to not let my kids seeing that Im bawling. They'll know. They miss him terribly too. If your reading this, Id love to hear what you think. Id love to have some comments on this. Feel free to leave some comments... please!! Thanks http://www.homeschoolblogger.com/loughman98/509785/ Thu, 3 Apr 2008 09:04:00 -0500 http://www.homeschoolblogger.com/loughman98/509785/ My husband called me early this morning to tell me that dear friend of me died last night Ive known her for years, she worked with him. Im not sure that theres ever been a sweeter person. She was a wonderful Christian woman who i looked up to. Her name is Mary Ann. She found out a few years ago that she had cancer. She had surgery and went thru chemo and all that for a long time. then they thought she was ok. She was doing good, even came back to work. It came back . I know that she is rejoicing in heaven with Jesus right now. So we should be rejoicing with her, but we will all miss her. My prayer is that others will see Jesus in her and come to know Him thru her death. I know that was her prayer as well. I praise God that I will get to see her again one day. I wish I could be the kind of person that she was. Such a wonderful person to look up to! We love Mary Ann and will miss you greatly!! http://www.homeschoolblogger.com/loughman98/497776/ Thu, 13 Mar 2008 07:40:00 -0500 http://www.homeschoolblogger.com/loughman98/497776/ ok, so i just created a blog for each of my twins, they are sooo excited!! one is www.homeschoolblogger.com/jakeysblog and www.homeschoolblogger.com/joeysblog i know, were so original, lolol. http://www.homeschoolblogger.com/loughman98/495532/ Sun, 9 Mar 2008 17:15:00 -0500 http://www.homeschoolblogger.com/loughman98/495532/ I quit using this blog for a while because i kept having an anonymous poster who would not tell me their identity but was asking questions about my family. but i really did enjoy  using this blog, so im gonna try one more time. so, in case anyone cares, im back :) To catch up, my kids are now in ECOT, which is basically public school at home. i love it, tis going great! i get to be mom again! but i still have control over their education, to a point. their teachers even told me its like homeschooling with public school help. Everything else, still pretty much the same. were in the middle of a blizzard right now. im sooo glad that i dont have to go anywhere today! leave me comments if your here, id love to know if anyone actually is coming to my blog have a great day everyone ~~Steph http://www.homeschoolblogger.com/loughman98/494811/ Sat, 8 Mar 2008 08:48:00 -0600 http://www.homeschoolblogger.com/loughman98/494811/ Someone left me a comment and didnt sign a name, only anyonomos. I am interested in what that person was saying, about my son maybe needing to talk to my pastor and needing to talk to me about something. Im wondering if whoever you are if you could let me know and tell me some more about this, please? http://www.homeschoolblogger.com/loughman98/283208/ Sat, 10 Feb 2007 07:17:00 -0600 http://www.homeschoolblogger.com/loughman98/283208/ well, weve been sick in this huose for a good couple of weeks, so i take it very sreiously when one of my kids says "mom i dont feel good" and esp if they aly around on the couch and even sleep a lot for a few days. i figure their fightig off some illness and they need the rest, right? well see if i do that again. one of my 6 year olds,  kept us from goingt o church on Sunday. its very cold and weve had soem prety contagious stuff weve been exposed to, so he said he didnt feel good, i took him serious. Hes been on the couch for 3 days saying he doesnt feel good. hes been running a low grade fever and just laying there. THREE DAYS!!! no school, no nothin. yesterday am, he begged me to call the dr. rememebr that, he asked me to take h im to the dr!! so of course, i took h im! guess whats wrong with him... NOTHING!! hes been faking!!!! argh!!!! yes, hes been faking. he admitted, after going to the dr that he didnt feel good but that he faked it a lot too. hes been up and running around and um.. catching up on 3 days worht of school ever since we got home. i guess i hafta come up with a some sort of questionairre to make sure thier really sick now. ugh!! kids!!! i nver felt so stupid as i did in the dr office. http://www.homeschoolblogger.com/loughman98/281810/ Wed, 7 Feb 2007 15:48:00 -0600 http://www.homeschoolblogger.com/loughman98/281810/ Tons of school work and sick kids have left me with no time to post anything new on my blog. however, were down to only 1 1/2 sick kids (one was better but isnt doing too great right now, shes about half ) So heres our update. We made our flag!! i want to scan it and put a picture on here but dont have time to do that right now, si i will describe it. picture the American flag, it is rectangle in shape. Also, like our countries flag, there is a box at the left hand top corner. inside that box, however is purple, to symbolize the royalty of Jesus. We are His children! On to p of the purple, there is a white cross. The white symbolizes the purity of Jesus and the cross, His mercy and grace and love! then we have stripes on our flag for the rest of it. There is one stripe for each of our children. They all go tto pick the color that they wanted thier stripe to be. I think it looks pretty neat. i woudl like to try nad make one but im not the best seamstress and have been told that it is very expensive to make. i dont care if we use regular material. id just like ot have one made. wonder how much money it would cost? Those of us who are healthy took a tour of the fire dept today. it was a really good time. we were just getting ready to see inside the fire truck when they got a call and we had to leave, but the tour was great anyways! im very glad that i scheduled it! i have one firefighter to be, too lol. We will do another one so our sick kids can go too. i got more to say but am out of time, so.. have a great day everyone!! please leave coments!!! http://www.homeschoolblogger.com/loughman98/280544/ Mon, 5 Feb 2007 14:42:00 -0600 http://www.homeschoolblogger.com/loughman98/280544/ My good friend Hugs4Him has posted a great entry on David Kirby and his visit to The View regarding mercury in immunizations causing autism in children. If you havent been to her blog, you gotta go, shes great! And her blog is beautiful. I put the link in, but for some reason, i cant get them to work, so in case it doesnt work, you can find her lin on my friends list on the left side of my blog, or the address is www.homeschoolblogger.com/Hugs4Him On our homefront, today is Alexs birthday!! My baby is one decade old!! oh man!! i cant believe it!! Ive been a mom for a decade!! I remember when i turned 10 and thought it was so cool that i was turning double digits and now ive "arrived" now im the mom of soemone whos turning double digits!! ahhh!!! Baby Girl Danni Rose is sick. Tonsilitis!! A day of meds and aleady shes feeling a little better. still not ready to conquer the world or anything, but shes getting there. I hate medicine and dont like taking it or giving it to my kids, but praise God when its used in good ways and helps my baby feel better!! Well, thats my time limit, so off i go  to start my day. Have a great day everyone! Feel free to leave coments!! http://www.homeschoolblogger.com/loughman98/277759/ Wed, 31 Jan 2007 08:31:00 -0600 http://www.homeschoolblogger.com/loughman98/277759/ During our Bible study last night, my pastor talked about the woman at the well. She was outside the city, in the heat of the day, at a time when the other women werent there, probly because they mocked her. She was, um, more of a hanging out with the guys kinda girl. Anyways, Jesus said to her straight out "you have had 5 husbands and the man you are living wiht now is not your own" ok, ouch!! wow!! She imediately knew that there was something special about this Man. She quickly learned just how special He is!! But this story really got me thinking. What if Jesus walked up to me today? What if He saw me "at the well". What would He say about me? Im certain that at this point in my life, I wouldnt hear "well done thy good and faithful servant"!!I havent had 5 husbands. and the man im living with is my husband. But i have my own "list" of sins. Quite a thought. Quite convicting. now time to do soemthing about those!! http://www.homeschoolblogger.com/loughman98/276531/ Mon, 29 Jan 2007 07:50:00 -0600 http://www.homeschoolblogger.com/loughman98/276531/ i was reading yesterday one of those daily devotional things and this one really hit me. Its so hard sometimes to see whats going on around  you because all you can see is whats right in front of your face. You see the troubles and the concerns and get so worked up trying to fix those that youve missed the blessings. at least, i do. The stroy i read was about a missionary. He was in , um, i think it was Africa. He and his wife were coming home and the ship that they were on also carried the president who had been on a hunting trip. When the ship docked and everyone got off, of course there was a huge welcome for the president. parades and all that "good" stuff. No one was there to welcome the missionary. He got discouraged and said to his wife "Weve spent so long of our lives in Africa trying to save souls and we get home and no one is there to greet us. nothing! but the president goes and kills a few animals and gets this greeting? It just doesnt seem right!" I dont rememebr exactly how the writer put it, but the missionary was reminded by God that he didnt have his welcome yet because he was not yet home!! Wow!! What an awesome reminder! Our reward is in heaven. Were not home yet!! Were still "in the fields", havent even gotten on the ship yet. In my life, there hasnt been too many parties with me being the guest of honor. im not sure i know how that feels. But one day, I will go home. My days here will be complete. and I will go to be with Jesus (who by the way, dont get me wrong, is always the "guest" of honor!!!) and Jesus, along with loved ones who are already there, along with angels will greet me!!! They will welcome me and there is my reward!! So if no one here notices. If i do lots of stuff and someone else gets the credit. If my kids or husband never says thank you. while that all may be frustrating, i have to rememebr, Im not yet home. Ill get my reward when i get there! and how much better a reward that will be than a silly parade here!!! http://www.homeschoolblogger.com/loughman98/275289/ Fri, 26 Jan 2007 08:06:00 -0600 http://www.homeschoolblogger.com/loughman98/275289/