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spinning

Fri, 12 Jan 2007 15:28:00 -0600

So life like always is going crazy...like spinning out of control crazy.

To start off...my sister moved out. and that didnt go over to well with me...but im used to the idea now.

So my life started spinning on Tuesday night. My freshman friends...the ones in the blog before this one....well things are going on with them. and like...its just really with Ashley and Jennie. lets back up before tuesday...to saturday...I was talking to jennie over aim...and like i asked her a question and she was like i dont know...which was her way of saying im not telling you. but thats ok. but then like later i asked her if she was going to be at church on sunday and she said "unfortuanlty" and i was like is everyhitng ok jennie...andshe went away!! and then she didnt show up on sunday. so then tuesday Ashley sent me a text message... and it said "please pray for jennie" and i was like whats wrong...and she said "jennie hates God and I dont know what to do anymore" so we talked about it for awhile over text messaging...and like i started crying...and i was babysitting!!! ahh!!

but like then wednesday i got to church and melanie was talking to me and she said that at lunch that day someone asked who was going to church and jennie said it again "unfortunatly" and like she has me worried. then i went up to jennie before church started then and asked her how she was and she was like good. and then all through the service i kept thinking about her with like everything John was saying. We were talking about God being Sovereign but we have responisbitly and free will. and at the end of the service I was like ive got to talk to jennie. and she leaves like as soon as it lets out...so i ran out after her...and as soon as her friends walked away I looked her in the eye and i said "jennie are you ok?" and she shook her head and broke down crying....she said something about her problem and then all of a sudden she said ive got to go and walked away...and i was like what jsut happened here! well then i was heading back in and I saw one of my friends Lizzy...and like i walked up to her and she wrapped her arms around me. and she was liek is everyhitng ok...and i told her no..and then i told her i had a lindsey in my life...which she understood that one...and thats a different story. and we talked for a few minutes...and like of course by this time i was crying. so then i went back in to where my friends were...and then they decided it was time to go...and on the way out i turned back around and went to find Chris...who is my infusion group leader...and i told him the problem...and he was like yeah thats rough...but with prayer and friends she can get through it all. and then by like this time all my friends are gone...

but then yesterday, thursday, i was talking to Ashley on AIM and we talked for like 2 hours...and she is so worked up over this. and like its really bad. i cried all day yesterday over it. but i felt like all day yesterday i was supposed to call jennie. and so i told ahsley that to see how she would respond to it. and she said that jennie could get like really mad depending on what i said to her....and like when she gets mad...you can be in trouble. and so i was like soooooo scared that i would say something and it would hit jennie wrong and she would be mad...and then she wouldnt talk to me anymore....and ashley said 'is it better to keep your friendship with jennie or get back on track with God" and like of course its better to get her back on track with God. over our conversation we were takling alot about what would happen if jennnie and i lost our friendship...and ashley said that if it came down to that then she would break her friendship off with jennie cause she couldnt handle the pain and i told her that she couldnt do that casue if she did that then me putting my friendship on the line would mean nothing....but i dont believe that jennie could get mad at me like that. so i called her but her cell was turned off and no one answered the house phone...and its driving me insane!!! but i knwo that it is all in God hand and that He will take care of everything.

oh and something weird that happened....i got the text message from a friend...one i dont talk to alot anymore...and she said "hey are you ok?" and i was like that is really weird...and really weird timing...but im glad she sent me a text.

but yeah im done...

Girls night

Wed, 22 Nov 2006 14:13:00 -0600

Life has been going pretty well lately. This past Saturday Melanie and I had a girls night with 3 girls (they are actually the ones I mentioned in the last blog) So Melanie, Ashely, Jennie, Abbey and I were all at Melanies Saturday night. We did this little craft thingy....it was really cute when it turned out. Its a glass box with Christmas lights in it and then a ribbon tied around it like a present. its neat. We played a few games then we played this one game...where we write down like 2 questions....like funny or personal....and then someone would draw it and they had to answer it. it was really funny...Jennie and Ashely both left around 9ish. but Abbey spent the night with us. Well when Melanie was tryign to hook the DVD player up Abbey and i were talking...and then Melanie couldnt get it to work so she was tryign to get us to move into the other room...but Abbey wouldnt go cause we were in the middle of a conversation. She wouldnt move at all...like even when i started to get up...so i said and talked for a minute longer and then she like got up and left...it was really weird.

We watched LakeHouse and i dont know if you have ever seen it..but its really confusing! haha. but it was great.

Sunday morning Abbey decided to sit in the service with me the second service. And during the music part of the service they played "Jesus paid it all" and Abbey was crying.. but i looked at her and I couldnt see that she was crying. but when we sat down...i looked at her when they were palyign this video clip...and i said "are you alright Abbey" and she cried on my shoulder...a few minutes later i passed her a note...i dont like passing noted in church but theres sometimes you need to...so i asked her again...i said "Abbey are you ok" and she wrote..."yes, I just wish the holidays would never come because of what they used to be" and like i didnt know what to say...i thought about it all through service...and like it hurts me to know that shes hurting. Like even though I dont know her that well..and I cant say i know how she feels...but it has got to be really rough. its only been a little over a year since her brother was killed. so they are still fresh wounds. but after service was over she didnt get up again...which i was glad cause I wanted to talk to her. So we sat and talked for a few minutes...or rather I talked she jsut cried. i told her to call me if she needed anything...but I dont think she will. but Im going to call her and I think Im going to ask if she wants to do something sometime. but i jsut dont know what to do. At chruch sunday night when we were in out small groups I was talkign about it. and Robbie (the leader) she said that she thought that i had been put in Abbeys life for a reason. and that she needs to be loved and for someone to help her through it. and my mom said... "What Abbey needs is a big brother but I think she will settle for a big sister" meaning she wants her brother back...but since she cant have him back that i can be her "big sister"

anyways if you guys can keep her in your prayers I would greatly appreciate it. Thanks!

Mindy

life...

Fri, 10 Nov 2006 14:24:01 -0600

This week has been a little rough...things have been going on and im not sure how much more I can handle...but just when I think I cant handle it any more Im reminded that it will all be ok...

It basically all started last week...I am having this friendship problem and on Sunday a friend was talking to me and shes been having a rough time...and then out of nowhere she says "Hakuna Matata" i busted out laughing and we sang the song...then a few nights ago I got a text messgae from a friend...and it just made my day...and then last night I was up late talking to a friend who made me think...and she was talking about something and I was like that all happened to me....and thats a problem I am dealing with now...and she kind of brought it out...but it was good. Then this saying came to my mind...it was given to me over the summer...it says "Lifes an adventure! Embrace the changes God has in store for you" its great quote and helped me alot over the summer.

moving on....

so Fusion ( high school) theres these girls that Melanie and I are tryign to become closer friends with...its 3 freshman...they are all sweet kids. Ashley is on the puppet tema with Melanie at church and has been for awhile so we have known her for awhile...but becoming frineds with her is differnt. lol. Melanie, Ashley, Jennie and i went to Camp Flipt over the summer together to be counselors. so...then we tried to get to know Jennie more. and they have another friend Abbey....who Ive know who she was for awhile but never talked to her until the beginign of the school year..melanie ahs known her for while....and they started to build a really good friendship over the begining of the summer.

Ashley...is hyper outgoing very loud person haha.

Jennie...is out going..but laid back. lol

and Abbey....very quiet....and has had a very hard life...she lost her brother just a little over a year ago.

So weve been getting to know these girls...im tryign to think of how to right what im tryign to say here but i cant think of it so never mind haha.

On Wednesday nights at church we all sit together...and theres like a total of 9 of us...and only like 6 seats....so we always pull more up and have a long row...but like Ashely always sits next to us...which is ok...but the Jennie sits behind us...and melanie and i were talking and we were like I dont like that....so every week we try to get Jennie in the smae row as us...but theres a few things that makes it not work. haha. and wednesay i got so fed up with it...but oh well. we will work it out one day. So melanie and i were tlaking one day and we were all like lets write letters...so we did...we wrote one letter to Ashley and signed both our names and so on and so forth...then we gave it to them....it was sooooo funny when they read it though. But over the past few weeks soethign has really been bothering Abbey...and ill be like are you ok? and shes says little things...but then like stops in the middle of the sentences...but i know it has to do with the loss of her brother.

Next weekend Melanie and I are going to have a a cook out with the 3 of them. and actually I jsut a text message saying the Abbey is spending the night. so that will be fun....we arent sure about the others yet though...anywyas...im gonna go...i habve homework...and other stuff to do.

life...

Fri, 10 Nov 2006 14:24:00 -0600

This week has been a little rough...things have been going on and im not sure how much more I can handle...but just when I think I cant handle it any more Im reminded that it will all be ok...

moving on....

Ashley...is hyper outgoing very loud person haha.

Jennie...is out going..but laid back. lol

and Abbey....very quiet....and has had a very hard life...she lost her brother just a little over a year ago.

So weve been getting to know these girls...im tryign to think of how to right what im tryign to say here but i cant think of it so never mind haha.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

Mon, 23 Oct 2006 12:55:00 -0500

So far today has not been a great day!! AHH!! I woke up and my legs were hurting because last night at InFusion we played a game and we used our leg muscels...and im guessing i used some i havent used in awhile lol.

then when i left i pulled out of my driveway and my car felt funny...and i was like oh no i think i have a flat tire...and so i pulled off the raod and sure enough i had a flat tire!! AHH!!

Then I got to class like 2 minutes before my porfessor walked in...and so i didnt really get to look over my vocab words...and we had a test today!!! but thats ok...cause i finished it in like 5 minutes cause it wasnt hard at all if you studied which i did...but the good news is...we got out of class and hour and a half early.

Then I just called my advisor for a paper thats due on wednesday...or not really a paper more of a survey about our advisor...so i called her...and shes weird too...and didnt answer half my questions so i think im going to flunk that paper...

oh and im also begining to think that all professors at WCTC are weird in some way or another.

well i have homework to do so ive got to go.

To my friends...

Sat, 21 Oct 2006 14:15:00 -0500

I LOVE YOU LOTS!!!!

Wednesday!! YAY!!

Fri, 20 Oct 2006 13:34:00 -0500

So Wednesday was a great day!! So great im going to write about it. Cause im bored and dont want to do homework haha.

Wednesday morning....I was up at 6 (that wasnt so grand) but anyways....in my first class we watched this video or well a comedian...and it was called "How to be a Humor being" It took up most of the time....and it was funny. so that was good. lol

Then in my second class we jsut went over the chapter and was dismissed...an hour early!! It was great!! haha.

Then when I got home I was like Im going to go see my friends at choir. Cause Tuesday night I was talking to someone over IM and she was like hows everyone where you are and im like im not even sure...cause I hadnt talked to them in awhile...and it made me sad...so i went to choir and saw everybody. and that was great!! I love seeing my friends!

Then church was GREAT! When I got there I was walking up to the Hangar (which is what we call the building the youth meets in) at the same time one of my friends was gettign out of her car. I was like wow shes here! Im gonna give her a name but not a her real name...not that any of you know her...so were going to name her... Brittany...so Brittnay pulls up...and we talk and shes like "I made it!" Which is great...and ill get into that story in a little bit...then later i sat with like s bunch of friends during the service...haha. There were like 10 of us...well actually 11...anyways we took up a row and a half. So i was sitting next to a freshman Ashley and a junior Molly. Two great people. but then i felt bad for Ashleys friends casue they sat behind us...but moving on...worship was good...Hannah L was leading it was her first time leading and it was good. Then some girls did this dance...and it was good...they were all scary looking and we couldnt figure out who one was until like half way through lol. But the dance was good then...John did a message about Pride Vs. Humilty it was really good and really got you thinking. After the message was over Gregg played a song on his guitar and it was "Jesus Paid it all" and like it hit alot of people really hard. Well after I was getting my stuff and "brittany" turned around to get her stuff and she was crying.... i went around to her and gave her a big hug.and she just cried....

now im going to back up to Sunday and give you the other story real quick. So Sunday nights are our InFusion groups...and brittany has only been to one...and then she went to 242 one time. So after every InFusion I would come home and send her an email asking her were she was. And she always came up with excuses...like "im sick" or "I couldnt get a ride." wel llets back up a little more...at run thrus one night I was talking to Mz Kim and she was like did Brittany show up and I was like no and then another lady came over and she was like "yeah she called when she found out Hannah wasnt coming and said she was sick" so Mz Kim told me to give her a call and she would call to...so then i eamiled her casue i didnt have her number

so this past Sunday i was like shes not here again..so when i got home tht night i sent her an email and i was like why arent you coming...whats the real reason... and i told her she didnt have to answer but she did with my dad wasnt here and my mom couldnt give me a ride...so like i sent a really long email back saying i havent seen you at church lately...and thats not good.

so now back to wednesday....so i gave her a hug and she said "Ive fallen" and im like its ok and she was cryign so hard...and she was like "Im gonna start coming back" and im like good ;) and we talked and i prayed for her and i told her to call me if she needed a ride or anything. so like later i was telling my mom about it and i was like yeah i suppose that email i sent her kind of convicted her.

But back to church....so then when we were getting ready to leave i realized I had a birthday card for someone so i went back inside and i was looking for this person...and i saw Molly and she came running up to me...and this is the converstaion.. Molly " I accepted Jesus!" mindy "What?!" Molly "I did! I never really did it before..I mean i always believed but i dont ever remember accepting Him into my heart" mindy "Thats fantastic molly Thats so great!" i was so happy it was such a great feeling! She was so happy and so excited.

But wait my nights not over yet....so outside in the parking lot i was talking to Melanie...and we were all like YAY for Molly!! and then we got into all these different conversation. the one main conversation that we kept having was about this one girl...and how she acting differently at school, at church, and around us...and we didnt really like it. well then it was like 9:30 and like everyone had left the church by now cause church was over with at 9...so me and melanie went to Chick-fil-a to talk some more..and when we got there this girl was leaving and i was like "are you laeving?" and she was like "yeah, why?" so i told her i just wanted to talk to her but it wasnt anythgin big. well then when we got inside she was in there...and she was like im not leaving till we talk...and then her other frined came up so we didnt get to talk about what i wanted to but thats ok. so anyways me and mel got the chsnce to talk to the 2 of them for awhile. but the day was just great!!!

So thats what happened to me Wednesday night haha.

Update on Kassie

Mon, 16 Oct 2006 20:44:00 -0500

She is home from the hospital...she actually came home either Thursday evening or Friday morning. So shes home and thats great. Info is coming little by little. She was at practice and she was coming up on a jump and she wasnt ready and the horse went anyways causing Kassie to fall off. The horse kicked her in the back but didnt step on her. So she has a bruise from that and a few other bruises. But she is alright. At InFusion last night Robbie was like are there any prayer request and I was liek we need to pray for Kassie. So we went into this whole thing and none of the girls in that group had heard about it. Mz. Kim knew a little so she shared. She said that Kassies dad and grandfather had a feeling something was wrong and they were both praying for Kassie the whole day and then found out about the accident. Mz. Kim also said that Kassie knew she was going to fall off her horse and that it was going to hurt. I jsut recieved an email from Kassie...Im going to copy it so you get the effects of what it said...cause it made me cry. Keep in mind this is a girl who is 17 years old and just fell off her horse and....she just amazes me! Oh and so your not totally confused I sent her an email first saying that I was prayign for her and had started a prayer chain....so here it is...

Hey Mindy thank you so much for your prayers that's really sweet of you! It was a scary moment i am not even gonna lie but I was in good hands and the Lord took care of me because it could have been a whole lot worse!! But i am doing much better still kinda sore and have headaches from time to time but thank you for your prayers!!:) The Lord had his protection over me which I am ever Thankful!!! He is Awesome and Amazing!!! Hope you have a great night!:)
Kassie

So thats what she wrote me...and like I said she just amazes me...she always does. She always puts God first and you can really see it in her life. She is one special girl and the great God who saved her isnt ready for her to go Home just quite yet...hes going to use her in many many ways to further His kingdom.

URGENT PRAYER REQUEST

Thu, 12 Oct 2006 20:42:00 -0500

I have a prayer request that I ask everyone to pray for...whether you know me or not...but I got word just a little while ago that one of my friends Kassie Brooks fell off her horse today when riding. She is currently in the hospital. It has scared me half to death....I cant imagine what it would be like to be in her familes shoes right now or for that matter hers. She did have her helmet on which was definitly a good thing....because if she didnt we most likely would not have our Kassie on earth anymore. But she is lying on a backboard right now...she can feel her toes so she isnt paralyzed...which is also good. I jsut ask that everyone can pray for her. I wont know if you pray for her or not unless you tell me...but God will and He will hear your prayers...so please join me as I pray for my friend Kassie.

I am so shaken over this thats its hard to focus my attention on typing this so sorry for the misspelled words and so forth.

In Him,

Mindy

InFusion

Thu, 14 Sep 2006 15:11:00 -0500

InFusion groups started last Sunday night. It was so much fun! Lets start somewhere near the begining lol. Over the past 3 years I have been attending the Mantzell/Brooks group. Well this year the Mantzells werent doing a group. So one night at church me and Melanie were looking over the groups. there were 6 groups. 3 of them looked good to us....like they were all great groups just not the right group...so anyways...we narrowed it down to the Copeland/Roberts the Gravvitt/Wilson and the Adams group...well alot of talking through everyhting and stuff we both decided we would go to the Copelands group...so the saturday before groups started melanie calls me and shes like im going to the Gravitts group...and i was like ok....i wasnt really sure how to tae it...cause like weve always been in the same group...and this year we were going to a different group and we werent going to be inthe same group. So I showed up at the Copelands group as planned...I walked in and i knew most of the kids there...well all but 2.so i talk to them all and stuff and then we start group...we didnt do a lesson that night but we bonded. and like weve already connected alot more then we did at the Brooks group. We played lots of games, lots of "get to know you" games. It was lots of fun. There were only 13 of us there...3 guys lol...but it was great. I had a wonderful time. but somehting we said when Chris (the leader) asked what we wanted out of the group the kids mostly said just to connect with everyone cause like we have frinedships with eachother but not to where we really know eachother. it was cool cause thats excatley what i want.I want to connect. THEN last night at church our youth pstor John was talking about our InFusion groups. And how like everyone needs to feel that they are cared for and they can share things...and he just went on and on about what the group is supposed to be...and like what he said is how i have felt for 3 years. like in the Brooks group they already had a cliche and they didnt really accept anyone into it...and i stayed in the gorup for 3 years...and i have no idea why...i love the Brooks but i think i was scared of change. But last night at church I was sitting next to this girl named lindsey. Shes goign to the Copeland group this year also....and like during the service she kept looking at me...and I would just smile....because what John was saying about the groups is what Lindsey was saying in group. John said we live for friendship with people....but we crave for deep friendships with people. we want to connect wit hthem we want to know what makes them tick as John put it. Honestly I crave those deep friendships wit hsome of these girls. and lindsey is one of them. when we went on stage to sing she kept lookign up at me (cause she shorter then me lol) i dont know know how to explain what im feeling. like Lindsey is one of the sweetest, funniest, people i know...and i guess since our Katrina trip which was in December last year ive been wanting to get to knwo her better. but we havent realyl done anything about it....like i know from the way she talks to me and looks at me and from what she has said to me and she really loks up to me. which is a weird postition...like i know i look up to people...i look up to most of my friends but its really weird to hae someone look up to you the way Lindsey does. but i crave for that friendship and i crave for a friendship with this other girl Taylor. I think ive written a few things about her in here...she confuses me most of the time...weve talked through emails and stuff alot...and her main problem is boys....and i dont know how to expali nher either but i want those friendships wit hthem...and i dont knwo if that will ever happen. but well see wont we? we find out whos minis (small small groups) we are in this week. wel lat least im hoping. which minis are jsut groups of like 5 people inside of the 20 or whatever...like we had 13 kids...the 3 boys would have gone with the 2 male leaders and the 10 girls would have been split between the 3 female leaders.

ok so now im done.