One of the few places that I have ever truly felt at home was in Alaska....  People there were not afraid to either embrace or ignore the different.  It's easy to walk to the beat of your own drum if everyone around you is wearing their own earphones.  When I was 23 I decided that I wanted to move to Alaska and really experience it... so I loaded my little 2 seater car and drove the Al-Can solo...  I often wonder if I would have the nerve to do this now?  Would I live as fearlessly as I used to...

But then again, I did do alot of stupid things... Even though I didn't use alot of thought... I felt like I was really living and experiencing what the world and life had to offer.  It was a very day by day existence where I reacted to my surroundings rather than having a plan....

It just makes me think:

Is being content a good thing?  Does it lead to more than complacency?

I think that I need to find the medium ground as to where change ends and chaos begins... I guess I just don't want to become someone who lives a life that is wasted on the mundane...

I'm just feeling very settled lately... life is good, too good... and it makes me nervous.  Not in a bad way, but more in a way that I feel the need to skew it just a bit... see what it's like to have to react rather than just go day by day... 

I guess I need to evaluate more the person that I am, and the life that I am actually living...

"You are what you do, not what you say you are."