I would like to think that I use this site for putting helpful things and recipes on, but I've been in a purple funk lately... not as bad as a black or blue one... but I have been more in my head than normal... 

I'm going to snap out of it next week, but I'm taking one last day to dwell in this place...  I feel attacked lately and while things are good, even great... I'm having a hard time relating to it.

I've really tried to pay more attention to what I feel God is calling me to be and do.  I feel like for the first time in a very long time I may be actually listening to Him, and that He is blessing me and my family.

 I just feel such a sense of futility on so many levels right now...  it's not that excitement or hope is gone... I just feel that the world is moving on and that things are just moving way too fast....  I would just like for things to slow down for just a season..........