I used to believe when I was younger that I had no regrets in life and that I never would.... now I find that they are unexpectedly climbing around me....seeming to grow higher every day.

I think that one of the remarkable things about youth is that things seem so in the moment, but I've gotten to the point where I'm only grasping at youth and what it used to represent to me.... I have the feeling it will soon be out of my reach forever.  I'm wanting to go back and reclaim the things I overlooked in my youthful stupidity, but I'm finding I've run out of time...

It's also a load of crap about only being as young as you feel.... I feel young, but the face I see every morning doesn't match what's in my head.  The memories I have last too long to belong to someone who is young....

I guess I'm wondering what my purpose holds at this point in my life.... Am I simply waiting for death?  Is life over?  Is growth still possible?  Is God giving me a 2nd (or 3rd, 4th, or 5th) chance to finally get things right?

It's not so much the stupid things I've done in life that I regret, but more the things I didn't do....

I have had a pretty rich life.... I've been alot of places/seen alot of things kind of cliche' but there are still things I wish I had done when I had the opportunity that age robs from us all....