Tom Kitten was very fat, and he had grown; several buttons burst off.

Unfortunately Tom Kitten isn't the only one....

Last week at work I was asked what I had done different to my hair, as my face looked 'so round'.  And just tonight, in vain, after watching the Duggar vow-renewal/wedding re-do thing I decided to try on my wedding gown.  You don't actually think that it fit, do you?

It did... almost, it did, but in the end the zipper didn't go all the way up.

I've been complaining about being overweight for a long while now, but nothing has seemed to really work.  Maybe it's because I'm still overeating and using exercise as an excuse to eat more?  Sounds like a possibility, doesn't it?

So for the last two weeks I've taken a different approach that seems to be actually working.  Instead of eating PERFECTLY, as I feel I should do if I am dieting, I'm eating less.  Probably around 1500 calories a day.  I'm exercising, but not to the extreme.

So often I tend to have problems finding the middle road... I don't like normalcy or mediocrity, so I feel the need to go overboard with whatever I'm doing.  Maybe the middle isn't so bad.  Maybe it will be easier to stick with something that isn't so drastic.

I'm eating 3 small meals and 2 snacks during the day and getting some form of exercise 4-5 days a week.  I've been limiting carbs after 12noon, and really sticking with veggies at that time.  In fact, I've made my own 'diet' soup that is basically beef broth, and pumpkin broth (left over from pressure cooking pumpkin) and add in a bunch of veggies like green beans, kale, greens and onions.  I also add a ton of hot sauce for flavor as I love the stuff.  This, with a touch of parmesan, has been dinner for me most every night.

I may never be able to get into the wedding dress, but I think I'm at a pivotal point at this time.... one where if I put this off any longer things will only get more out of control and worse.  I guess it's really for me just about realizing what I can accept about myself, and this isn't something I'm just willing to accept...