Well, today is my 36th birthday.  I am a little sad today.  Not because of getting older.  I actually think aging is pretty cool.  No, it is because I can remember what I was doing just half of my life ago, at 18.  It seemed like yesterday.  Life is truly a vapor.  I am reflecting today on what I have done with my life.  While I have done the most important thing that a woman, I feel could do (that is , raising Godly children, home educating, trying to be a Godly role model to my family, and being the best wife to Jason I can be), I still sort of feel like something is missing.  I know what it is.  It is all of the things I have wanted to do, attempted to do, and quit doing.  In the past, it seemed when the going has gotten tough, I got going. 

But wait a minute, I have stuck to a few things.  I have beena child of the King for many years.  I have also been a wife to the same man for 16 years.  I have also been a stay at home mother for almost 14 years.  I have also home educated my children for the past 7 years.

Maybe the problem is that I feel like I am not a success based upon the world's standards.  Maybe I should focus on God's standards and realize that perhaps I am just where I need to be for now.