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Just learning to be who I am..but still trying to find out who that is.
Love my kids, of which I have 6
Some are now homeschooled, and some are not.
Working, going to school, and trying to be there for everyone and everything.
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| Normally, I am all smiles. Normally I seem happy. When I am at work, its all smiles and happiness. You have to be, right. My boss always comments on how I am constantly smiling. Well, it is a customer service job. Well, yesterday he walked by and I said hi..he then commented to the person that was with him: "I wish I was like Linda, with NO WORRIES." WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! No worries, indeed. I am constantly worrying, especially at work. I am sad, lots of times at work. Especially when I see mothers and daughter. Adult mothers and daughters. I watch them. I wonder if I will ever have a relationship like that. They act in many different ways, some joke, some sound frustrated with each other, some are loving, but all have a special connection, or vibe about them. They are bonded. I work retail..and one mother daughter pair came through my lane, and the daughter was just graduating basic training..and moving on to tech school. She had lots of stuff and the mom paid for it all. The daughter then told her mom, please mom, thats to much money. And the mom said...thats ok, you are my daughter. I almost lost it right there. "My daughter"..I am someones daughter..but we don't have that bond. I was thinking of my amom, who passed when I was 5. I think alot of these feeling I have are misdirected grief for my amom. I miss her so much. I think the deep need for my bmom, is more of a deep need for my amom. I love her so..I miss her so..I still have many memories of her..even though I was very young when she died. SHE was my MOM!! |
Posted: 11:49 AM, Jul. 17, 2008 |
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