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Just learning to be who I am..but still trying to find out who that is.
Love my kids, of which I have 6
Some are now homeschooled, and some are not.
Working, going to school, and trying to be there for everyone and everything.
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| I need to let this out some how. I keep wanting to break into tears every minute, but I hate to do it. No one here understands why I feel so sad that someone died whom they never met. Who I never really talked about to them..Really, I don't know why I feel this way. Its almost like all this reunion thing and mothering thing just overwhelmed so much that when I heard the news that my sister died I just couldn't take one more darn thing. I just could not take any more reminders about how screwed up people made my life. How I have no connection to anyone beyond my hubby and children. I almost have no past. I have no one that I can say was there for me when I was young. Every one sent me away at one time or another..everyone..and now when I want some connection some bond I find I have nothing. Then when someone who was part of my past, at least for a while is gone..I am wondering what else I have missed being without a family. Is this how foster kids feel? God help them. |
Posted: 3:04 PM, Jul. 21, 2008 |
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I'm sorry
for your pain, it is real and your sense of longing for what you lost is real...
Kristy |
Posted by Anonymous at 8:00 PM, Jul. 22, 2008 |
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