This is something I struggle with.
I feel like I have this over powering
thing in me that wont let me cry.
To be honest with you, I'm terrified of crying.
But at the same time I want to cry so badly.
I can feel my heart aching from hurt and sadness,
and the only way to let it out is to cry.
Yet I can't allow myself be that venerable,
even when I'm all alone.
Let Me Cry
Why wont you let me cry?
I feel this sadness that needs to come out,
And if it doesn't come out soon, it will kill me spirit.
Please, let me cry!
I am secure and you are powerless.
Let me cry.
Let me cry?
You beg and beg,
And that is why you are weak.
Only weak people cry.
Let me cry?
Please! Oh please!
I want to cry,
I want to be weak,
if only for a moment.
Isn't it exhausting,
being the rock for everyone?
Aren't you tired?
Oh let me cry.
Please?
Let you cry?
If you want to be weak that's fine.
Just know,
The capable survive,
And rule over the feeble.
You cry, and you wont last.
Maybe a day or a week, possibly a month,
But then you will be crawling back to me.
Let you cry?
Fine.
Cry.
Feb. 19, 2009 - Look What My Boyfriend Made Me!!!!
Look what my boyfriend made me for valantines day!
He didn't title it so here goes;
Seven pointlessly walked, you and I barely talked,
Until we strapped the metal to our feet,
My lips loosened and I did speak,
Slid the circle and talked away,
Wishing the night wouldn't go away.
The tedious movie,
Where our hands first met,
My heart raced,
I didn't know what to expect,
The unpredicted peck,
And my awkward farewell,
Everything that's happened,
Has been more then wonderful.
From scary talks, to loving hugs,
With foo's ball, and cops at the mall,
I'll be right there by you,
Through it all.
Isn't that cute!!! I'm not sure if it made any sense to any of you, but its from the first time we talked, to the first time we held hands, to the first time we kissed, to now.
Anyway I love it, and hope you guys enjoyed that little sneek peek into my life.
I love this song! It's sad but it... it comforts me.
It reminds me I can go to Jesus when ever I need too. He lets me cry on His shoulder and doesn't care weather I did Him wrong or anyone else. All He wants is to make me happy again.
P.S I have this song on my play-list if you haven't ever heard it.
Lyrics to The Last Night : By Skillett
You come to me with your scars on your wrist
You tell me this will be the last night feeling like this
I just came to say goodbye
I didn’t want you to see me cry, I’m fine
But I know it’s a lie
Chorus:
This is the last night you’ll spend alone
Look me in the eyes so I know you know
I’m everywhere you want me to be
The last night you’ll spend alone
I’ll wrap you in my arms and I won't let go
I’m everything You need me to be
Your parents say everything is your fault
But they don’t know you like I know you they don't know you at all
I’m so sick of when they say
It's just a phase, you'll be o.k. you're fine
But I know it's a lie
Bridge:
The night is so long when everything’s wrong
If you give me a chance
I will help you hold on
Tonight
Tonight
Altro:
I won’t let you say goodbye
And I’ll be your reason why
The last night away from me
Away from me
I wrote this about a year and a half ago, maybe a little longer ago.
It isn't for anyone impaticular. Just for those it touches.
Normally I try and write my poetry so that it is for a group or one spicific person, but this one... this one just flew into my head, so I wrote it down. I just found it about a week ago in a binder I thought I lost. I hope you enjoy it.
Bekah This has no name yet
Don't hate me.
I know I broke your heart,
But forgive me for that mistake.
Please don't hate me.
I know your goal.
Your goal to hurt me the way I hurt you.
But you should know,
I don't let many things bother me.
I know your goal,
Much better then you think.
Who is doing wrong now?
I'm sorry for hurting you.
Truly I am,
But who is cousing the pain now?
My heart is aching.
My mind is bursting.
My stomach is turning.
You've hurt me.
You were my sister,
Yet you destroy my trust.
You were my friend,
Yet you stab me in the back.
You were my confidant,
Yet you led me down the wrong path.
You've hurt me.
You make my heart ache.
You make my mind burst.
You make my stomach turn.
My full name is Rebekah, but no one calls me that unless their mad at me. I'm 16 and I have a large family of 9. I have only 6 that live at the house and a gr8 friend that lives with us too.
I have lived in 3 different states, and I've visited 12. so if you want to know any more just ask. I love to hear from people.
